I don't know what to do. I am going to talk to my therapist tomorrow morning for the 1st time in over 2 months, and I will talk to my phyciatrist Thursday morning.....
I am in a fog, and have been for the past few months. I can't seem to get my thoughts straightened out, and all of this is causing a great deal of anxienty 24/7. My thoughts and heart race, I have nightmares (when I DO sleep), and I have this generilzed feeling of fear. My memory is BAD. I can barely remember half the events that happened yesterday....or even this morning. I also feel like i'm losing time. (By that I mean that a 16-hour day only seems to feel more like a 6-7 hour day. When It's 4pm, it feel like it's around 10am. I have a normal schedule: I wake up between 7-8am, and I am in bed no later than midnight. I don't take a daytime nap, and I try to get anywhere between 7-8 hours of sleep each night.) I tried explaining it to my doctor at my last visit, but he had no clue what I was trying to explain to him.
I am suffering from PTSD from a car accident which occured back in March. I suppressed everything for a long time now, but once i was diagnosed, I was never really given any kind of help for it. I'm not even sure what kind of help I need.
I have been on SO many medications over the last 5 years. I don't even remember what i've been on, all I know is that I am much more clear-headed and function better when i'm not on anti-depressants.
Currently i'm on 1mg of Klonopin twice a day. But since I have been on it for almost 3 years, I'm at the point now that I can't function without it, but I have built up a tolerance some-what, so I still have the anxienty and panic attacks.
I feel alone. I have not met or heard of anyone who has issues with being in a 'foggy-minded' state such as i am and not being on any other medications other than a benzo. No one understands what it feels like to be 'losing time' like I feel i have.
What is wrong with me? Does PTSD cause this? What is the best course of action for me? What can I do to relax? The tips on this site don't seem to help. How do I get myself and my life back?!?!?! Am I alone in these feelings?
Any suggestions are NEEDED! Thanks everyone.....