Anxiety & Panic Community

Okay, so I was supposed to go to college six hours away from home, and everything was all planned and I had a perfect setup over there. But the morning I was getting dropped off at the campus about an hour or so before check in time, I started having a little panic attack in the hotel room restroom, and I threw up and started crying. I didn't want my parents to drop me off, and I developed right then and there this fear of the anxiety i would come to feel once they dropped me off for the actual term. While they were holding me and telling me everything was going to be okay, I was having trouble controlling my breathing, crying really hard, and I was trying to keep myself from throwing up. Being out of control of my mind and body made this even worse, and it was terrifying. Eventually, I calmed down a little but I still felt like crying, and I was nauseus. My sister stayed with me throughout the check-in process of the orientation, up until we were lead to our temporary dorms. I was still controlling my breathing in a sneaky manner, but my throat was dry no matter how much water I drank, and I still felt like throwing up. Once our parents were allowed into the dorms they helped me make my bed and they were calming me down because the panicky feeling had started to set in again. Once they left I immediately called two of my best friends who were at the orientation as well. I went to their dorm room and hung out with them for an hour, where I still controlled my breathing and felt naseaus until we were separated by our majors. ALL DAY, like literally, the entire day I couldn't focus on the presentations. I would try to focus in on things to help get my head back, but I found it incredibly difficult. I wasn't hungry at all the entire day, I was fighting the urge to throw up on the people sitting next to me. I felt like going to one of the orientation leaders and telling them to get me help or something, it was really silly. When we got back to our dorms, my friends helped me move my things into their rooms because i told them how i was feeling. that night, my parents called and I kept crying into the phone and gagging and breathing unevenly (to clarify, the orientation started on a tuesday morning, and ended thursday afternoon), and even after their reassurance that they'd see me on thursday, I still felt the same. And to boot, I sleep with the tv on, because I like hearing people talk while falling asleep, and because of the light it gives off. my friends sleep with the lights off, and I was going to turn on the kitchen light and leave the door open a crack, because I already felt like a pansy for being the only one having anxiety that bad. I didn't sleep, and my parents called the following morning. I cried and wanted to throw up again, and I felt the same that day too(wednesday). I didn't feel different until later that night when we were going back to the rooms. I was in a great mood and playing around with my friends. I ate, we talked like we normally do, I was fine. But it was only because I knew it would be over and I'd be with my family the next day. I got everything finalized and when We got home, I ate a good meal, i slept amazingly, until the next morning when I woke up and realized I had to go back in two weeks. I was sick the way I was during orientation for a week and a half straight, until it started getting worse and it got really out of control, and I threw up at Target when my sister left for two seconds to look at shoes. I decided not to go, and I cancelled everything. That was about two days ago. and to boot I had this feeling something was going to happen to me over there, and I had this insane paranoia that I would be abducted at the shuttle stop one morning. I saw this special on E! that I blame for that. I do want to go to that school eventually, hopefully in the spring semester or next fall, but I want to be ready for all of this by then. I was to ease or fix it. Is this a real problem or just me?