You know I was real understanding to your situation as I go through the same situation. I live in my bedroom all the time, morning, noon, and night. I don't go by doors. I make people check them to make sure that they are locked. I feel like someone is going to come in the middle of the night and pull me from my bed by my feet and no one will hear me screaming. But i did tell my doctor and he has me on medicine now as a matter of fact I take 13 different medications a day and for you to say you would rather smoke pot instead of take medication blows my mind. Did you know that pot actually feeds your anxiety part of your brain even though it may calm you down it feeds the paronoia in your head. I know this becaus i am an ex pot head my self i have become much better since quitting and getting on my meds, i can actually come out of my room and get a cup of coffee, and take a shower. My husband now works out of town and is gone from monday morning until friday night. I feed myself, i wash clothes, i visit with my aunt at my kitchen table for short periods at a time and i have started a small internet business not to mention have been able to restart relationships with my 9 children and that has been the best feeling in the world. My husband stands by me and is glad that i take the pills every daty, now you have to know i was diagnosed with, bi-polar, ptsd, personality disorder, anxiety disorder, schizophrenia, social phobia, fibromyalgia which caused alot of the pain that i suffered from. So for you to say you would rather smoke pot than to take medical medication to make you feel better just blows my mind if your husband loves you he will understand if you have to take 2 pills or 14 pills to make you a better and more normal person.