I was diagnosed with panic disorder in 2009 and was given a low dose of Zoloft and .5 mg of Ativan as needed. After about 6 months on the Zoloft, my Dr. recommended that I switch to a higher dosage of Zoloft (50 mg) since I was still having panic attacks. I switched to the higher dosage and felt horrible (increased panic attacks, paranoia, trembling, etc.). Afterwards, I was given fluoxetine which made me panic even worse. Lexapro made me feel like I was going crazy and dying. So I continued to take the Ativan as needed and eventually switched to 1 mg of Ativan up to 3x daily. In March 2012, I had my attacks under control enough to only take about 1 mg around bedtime for sleep. And that was working great until yesterday.
I had the worst panic attack ever. I was in the hospital for 4 hours because my heart was racing so fast and they couldn't get it down to below 100. Eventually, they got it down to 104 and I was released. I feel like everything is shaken up now and I feel panicked today. My previous panic attacks were never that severe and I am just scared. I do CBT therapy, exercise daily, eat healthy, etc.
My psychiatrist wants me to try the Zoloft again since the low dose helped me in the past. I have a phobia of medications (I won't even take Tylenol) which stems from the bad reactions I've gotten from various prescriptions.
I feel like I'm going crazy. I don't know what to do and feel so lost and scared all of the time. I have a great life, an amazing family, so why is my body and mind so panicked most of the time?? And what can I do to alleviate panic attacks/racing heart rate when they occur aside from diaphragmatic breathing?