Anxiety & Panic Community

Hi Everyone.
Not sure were to start so let me see. Lets go back 3 yrs ago. Life was going great, until wife and I could not have any kids. After spending tons of money we managed to have our first child 2 yrs ago. What a blessing.

During that time, between not being able to have child, work and loss of income, I started to get very dizzy all the time, several tests later, dr said I have anxiety. Started Zoloft, and life has been good.

Fast forward to the last year, I have lost 4 relatives that I was close to along to my 15 yr old cat. About 6 months ago I realized I was in a daze all this time. Feel like I am missing my child grow up, even though I spend every free min I have with my child. Also thinking back, only time I was upset about death was when my cat died. Thinking then what the hell wrong with me I talked with my dr that I wanted to stop taking Zoloft and have been free of it for 3 months.

The first 2 months were really bad, but I feel really good now, at least I thought. I am seem to cry over stuff now, my family member death, pictures of my cat or special dates in my life and I cannot seem to get it under control.

Wife says I need to man up and get it under control stop acting like a girl. I feel like it not getting any better and maybe it just takes time from not being on the medication. Also I have been eating out of control. Gained about 40 lbs in the last 3 months. My dr is no longer working, on leave not sure when he will be back. So I am unsure what to do. If I should just give it more time and let my body/mind reset itself still or am I really a mess?

Thanks for any feedback and allowing me to share.