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He has always had issues with depression - and would pop out lines like, "I wish I were dead." or "I hate my life." and we have had him in counseling in the past - but with limited success.
Well - the school year began this week. He has a great teacher this year and he really likes her - but he just hates school. He has some really good friends and he is actually in with the more popular kids in the class - but he talks a lot about worrying about being beat up or picked on. For the most part - his classmates seem to do very well for Gabe. It is a small school and they all seem to get that Gabe just really likes to talk about the things he likes - and when they get bored they will just walk away (usually with Gabe following them - talking the entire time).
Yesterday it all just went bad. He is having problems with seasonal allergies right now - so I know that didn't help. Gabe's current obsession is guns and horror movies. His friends are watching them and getting into them - so he started getting obsessed with them. To make matters worse - we really don't let him watch them. He is only 10. We have let him see Cujo and Firestarter - but we just don't really want him to see the Nightmare on Elm Streets and such yet - but he is obsessed with Freddy Kruger and Chucky.
Yesterday - when getting ready for school - he came up to me and said, "You need to have me put in an institution before I kill someone." Apparently he has been thinking a lot of killing and what it would be like to kill someone. He said it is no one in particular - he just wonders what it would be like to throw someone into an airplane engine or to break someone's neck. He said he doesn't like these thoughts and he is afraid that he will actually kill someone someday because he is having these thoughts. I tried to tell him that just because he has these thoughts it doesn't mean he is going to kill someone. I told him Stephan King probably has strange thoughts like this - but he never killed anyone.
Well - after 30 minutes of trying to talk to him and telling him I wasn't going to put him into an institution - he snapped and came out with, "If you won't put me away the only way I can keep from killing someone is if I kill myself." Then he decided that after school he was going to take a gun and "blow my head off."
Needless, after another hour or so of this we ended up in the ER. After 20 minutes there he was back to his old self and saying he wanted to eat food (food is his favorite thing right now)
Just not sure what to do here. We did get in to see someone who is just finishing their education on counseling kids like Gabe (so thankful that there is someone in the area now!) He told me this morning he doesn't want to go to school anymore - he hates waking up early. This is so strange - for his entire life up until this summer - he never ate or slept - he looked like we starved him and he would stay up for days at a time. Now he doesn't stop eating - is actually getting chunky, and will sleep 10 hours if you let him.
Is this the start of puberty causing this? I know the change from summer to school is part of it - he always has some issues when we go from summer to fall or spring to summer even.
I really don't want to put him on anti-depressants - but at the same time I don't want him to be unhappy or to hurt himself. He is such a smart and funny kids - I wish he could see that. He has friends and he gets good grades. Anyone else go through this at this age?
Whether it's puberty, autism or whatever it may be...suicide threats should always be taken seriously. I'm sorry you and your son are having to go through this and hope you will seek help right away.
Here is a link to our Crisis Resource s to get you started. I would also encourage you to participate in our Depression Community where they have a health expert and a community focused on these subjects.
Stay strong! I know it's hard, but don't ever let that moment come where you take the suicide threat for granted. Help him sort through things now. And if you ever feel like you or anyone else is in danger PLEASE call 911!
Come back and update us. Good luck!
We have had two more major outbursts since then - not as bad as that first one - but not fun. We saw the Asperger's specialist on Tuesday - Gabe goes Friday - then we all meet next Tuesday to find a plan of action.
I am just so scared he will at some point do something to hurt himself. I have known two families with kids a lot like Gabe (no diagnosis but I am betting anything they would have fit Asperger's syndrome) and both of the boys killed themselves when they were in their teens. It probably is my biggest fear.
I will let you know what we hear next week. Thank you again.
Just checking in to see how the appointment went this week.
Elizabeth
My 8 year old daughter was dx with PDD-NOS at 2.5 and now also falls into the AS diagnosis. Yesterday we were having a discussion about being loved and she opened up that no one loves her, she doesn't deserved to be loved, that she's the worst person in the world, & that she wants to take her dad's gun & kill herself (my husband is a police officer & the weapon is triple locked & unloaded). Then after talking for about 90 minutes, her best friend unexpectadly showed up at the door & she was perfectly fine. We're contacting her pediatrician today, but I'm truly at a loss. Any words of wisdom to share from your experience? Thank you, Theresa
When I was a child I loathed myself. But we had a lot of family drama because my sister was bipolar. I always thought that my self-loathing was guilt because I wasn't perfect. I DO NOT want my child growing up feeling the way i did, though.
He's the sweetest of my four kids - most empathic. My heart breaks for him.
He still isn't the happiest person in the world, but this step has helped a lot.
Gabe is doing better now that we homeschool him. I don't trust the SSRI's. I took them for a few months when Gabe was first diagnosed (thought it would help with my sadness). I was just sad when I started them, but became obsessed with suicide while on them. So I just don't trust them.
You are right - if someone has it in their mind to take that action they will eventually find a way. I have known several people who have taken their own lives - most of them did it when they seemed to be happy. They did it when no one even suspected that the option was in their minds.
God bless you.
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