I struggled with bipolar all of my life, I was diagnosed at age 13. I am 42 now. I attempted suicide a number of times, the last attempt was 2 and a half years ago. Today I am stable and very grateful to be alive. Six months ago, I started having low back pain, neck pain and headaches. My MD aware of my bipolar disorder and medication she prescribed me Ibuprophen 800 and then later vicodin. When it became chronic the dr ordered an MRI of my low back and found two mild protruding disks and sitting on a nerve, it wasn't until later that I started having siatic pain in my leg. After seeing an orthopedic he ordered an MRI of my neck that found 3 more protruding disks, bone spurs and narrowing of the spine. That was when they diagnosed me with Degenerative disk disease. That orthopedic refered me to a partner to evaluate me for pain shots. Due to my bipolar issue the drs would not give any medication and said he would not give me any shots. I went back to my MD and she gave me vicodin and refered me to a pain management spine clinic. I went there and they refered me to another pain management dr. They said he would know exactly what to do and that he took my insurance. When I called to set up an appointment, I was told he did not take my insurance but, I can pay cash. I'm on a fixed income and as much as I would like to, I cannot pay $260 per visit for a chronic pain issue. I am so frusterated, in allot of pain, and depressed. These dr's say they are worried about my bipolar issue but, without pain management, I don't have a quality of life, I don't enjoy anything anymore. Now I'm worried, if I can't have pain management and no one wants to help me, I'm not worried about "bipolar", I'm worried about suicide for relief. Today I am not suicidal but, I am very depressed and would like to know what an expert thinks. Thank you.