Backie Daily Moanin

Well I went to the cardiologist yesterday. It is AV Nodal Reentrant Tachycardia. It's a fairly normal for of Supraventricular Tachycardia. He started me on a low dose of beta blockers. We may need to play around a bit on the doseage and type. But for now I am starting at 50mg of metropol. I have not gotten it filled yet as I have not had even four dollars to my name to do this.

I left the doctors office at three pm. Dh called at four pm to let me know the power had been disconnected. We are so far behind now apparently I don't' get final notices.

I then had to pick up my daughter from my mothers house who had taken her to see Shrek three and said oh by the way she didn't like it and it was pretty scary. Great. Then I told me mom what was going on health wise. I am not even sure why I said anything. Of course she said you are going to be just like your dad and your heart is already starting to die and there is nothing they can do about it really. I was like thanks I needed to hear exactly that.

She also was unable to help me with the FPL(power) bill. So off to my inlaws to see if I could get the money. My mother in law and grandmother in law and I figured it out and made it work. I had to go without power last night and boy was it hot. Maggie had several nightmares and ended up sleeping in my bed I was up more than I slept. Again we have people out so I had to come in and I had to start in our south office and then go to the north office.

Then I was sitting at work and a text I sent did not go through. Called. Of course the payment I made on Friday was only a partial and It was not enough to keep my cell phone(which is my only phone) on. So on my lunch break I have to go pay the power bill and try to eat at the same time. I am so behind in work and I am suppose to be on vacation next week.

Oh and we probably won't have internet on Friday either. Not sure how to do it all anymore. Dh did say he was going to start taking over the bills so I wont feel so overwhelmed but that does not really help right now. We have open house tomorrow for

Maggie to start kindergarten on Monday and I have no money for the uniform shirts. I don't even know if I will be able to finish her school supply list either. I really have no time to find any other help other than family and they are pretty much tapped out as well after the power bill and the cardiologist appt.


Pain wise I am actually doing fairly well. I am down to one lortab most days. Fatigue is just so huge right now. Everytime I lay down my heart races unless its at night and I have taken my muscle relaxer xanax and ambien. So no naps lately either.

Tonight after work I have to go by my inlaws to get the four dollars to get my prescription and to pick up my grandma in law as my in-laws have someone taking them out to dinner and it would be very awkward for them to say can she come along and oh can you pay for her too. She does know about the money issues but whether or not she will remember or not.

Oh and one more thing , I haven't been able to pay the daycare for three weeks now I cringe every time we walk in the door for daycare thinking they are going to say no pay no stay. Dh has been running out of work at the lumbar yard and they just send him home early. Sometimes he doesn't even work four hours!

So this is why I have not been around much. No real time to let anyone know what is going on. I only get a few minutes at work at lunch and after I clock out to check email webmd and facebook.

If you read this much you are a saint to listen to my rant. I do check my email so feel free to email me. I believe it is in my profile. If not Fangboner@msn.com