I don't suppose we have many men left on the board do we?
Kind of sucks because I would really like some male input on this, I sort of already know what the female consensus is going to be but ahhh well maybe I don't really so we'll see.
So last the the bf went oout with his friend to go hang out with "some old friends from back in the day." Which is fine by me, I really do not care if he goes out or whatever. He gets home in the middle of the night, got dropped off I guess cuz he was too drunk to drive. And man he would NOT shut up!
Somewhere in all this he starts telling me how he loves me, BUT if he gets an opportunity to have sex with a girl, then he's going to have sex with whatever and however many girls he can. some shoot about guys not having the "opportunities" that girls have. That girls can have d...ermmm...a guy whenever they want, but that for guys or at least, for him, this is a rare thing. And i'm sitting there thinking wtfunk??? yeah...so....HOW am i suppose to feel about this now??? he has cheated on me before and he KNOWS that if he where to do such a thing and i find out, which i WOULD find out because he doesn't know how to keep his mouth shut, I would be gone So fast and not turn back.
So basically I guess he's waiting on the day that I leave him? Because judging by his words and his promised actions there's just no way.
He says he doesn't even know what to call me because I'm not his wife and we've been together so off and on for so long, we've know each other for 20 flippin years now! Which is nuts how time flies by.
Says he's getting old and blah blah....basically he wants to get laid by anyone and every girl he possibly can and he says how come i don't?And i'm thinking ewwwwwwww that's just gross! I don't need a man and certainly not gonna go sleeping around just because I can, that's a good nice way to end up diseased and just totally used up...I may not be perfect but I'm not THAT bad....
So what's the deal here, I'm thinking My God does this guy lack total funking respect for me or himself for that matter! I told him the only reason he think that way is because he's insecure, he thought about it and then agreed with me but maintains all his previous comments.
I'm just really disgusted and put off by these recent revelations, totally disgusted.
~Sky~
If you are struggling, please talk to someone. There are good and kind people in this world. There is love to know & beauty to find. You matter beyond words. Please don't give up.TWLOHA