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Hello my dahlings, beep beep

Weather: triple digits once again.

Sleep: good

Mood: good

Plans: Ive been doing some toning exercises. So far my azz is still big and saggy and my stomach is fat. I dont even fit into a skirt that I bought two months ago. How embarrassing. Lyrica is slapping on the pounds. I guess Im going to have to go on a dang diet. gggrrr.

Peace out my little hunnies. muahs

Hello everyone

weather gonna be in the 80's

sleep good

mood happy as a clam

plans Shopping

Weather - chilly and still raining

Sleep - good

Mood - slightly depressed


Maybe TRIGGER following:
Plans - had plans this morning but slept right through them; still need to go grocery shopping - have had to since last saturday. Maybe i do that today. do some house cleaning. maybe get some writing done, but maybe not because muscles are sore from falling the other day and from severe muscle cramp in left, leg. so with that, am sore to sit very long. also, my feet have been acting up when sitting and then takes a week to recover. so maybe just turn off computer for rest of day. messed up my bad shoulder when fell, and it was still doing ok since last cortozone shot. not anymore. dr wants to do another MRI anyway to make sure tumor not came back where surgery was and to see if rotator area on shoulder has got any worse. i don't want another stupid MRI. its weird because i take enough lorazepam that i actually start to doze off in mri and last time was no too scary for me, but upon thinking about it, i get terrified and start thinking worse case scenarios. i wish i never was claustrophobic. i wish my grade school friend never would have lock me in hope chest. i can't seem to get out of it (in my head) and it has had huge effect on me ever since.

I think maybe i am losing the battle, not the above battle, but "the" battle. I don't want to end my own life, and I don' t believe I ever could; but I'm growing weary of some of the things I've been going through for the past year and wondering will it ever end. Underneath it all, I know that somehow it will get better and I will come out on the other end a stronger person, but for now, I'm tired and discouraged.

Hi beepers

Weather high 80s

Sleep: good

Mood: angry ready to blow up

Plans: if I don't get my VP fixed today I am throwing it out. Then tell them their service sucks. Then find a new service to come and get me a new one.

Went to the store to buy a nice rug for outside to make it nicer and then a few items I needed.

beej

Debbie,

I am sorry you are having such terrible problems. I'm traveling to No. California and I'll swing by with some ice cream. I need a gallon or two myself.

Love and hugs,

Maggie

Afternoon all....beep beep

Weather: Hot, humid and the car's temp guage read 94 outside

Sleep: So so. Went to bed exhausted and was up late.

Mood: Slightly better than yesterday

Plans: My mom had asked me to find a fishing vest for my step-dad's birthday next week. You know the ones with all the little pockets. So I hit Dick's and found and bought one for her. While I was in that direction, I hit the gym. Now my tush hurts...reminding me I am really out of shape in some ways and not in others. Endorphins did me good. Finished my book and went to the library as I'm prolly gonna need a good read in the next few days. We're kind of "on call" as S's daughter is in early labor. Not enough to be in the hospital but enough that we're waiting. Praying that all goes well as she's early - only 35 weeks. So....trying to wrap my head around REALLY becoming a grandma at 39. LOL I'll keep ya posted. If I disappear for a few days it prolly means the baby decided to make his appearance.

I'm dieting and working out too!!!! Seroquel's done a number, but I'm fighting it and coming out on top. Lost 4 lbs in the last 2 weeks.

Fight fight fight cookster!!!

Thank you Maggie {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Maggie}}}}}}}}}}}}}} you are a sweetheart!

love
Debbie

Aww Debbie....keep hanging in there. Things are gonna improve. And like you, I get clausterphobia in the MRI too. Is there a provider that does open MRI's in your area? I had one of those done recently and it was a much more pleasant experience than the "oven."

I'm sorry you reinjured your shoulder too. Physical pain always seems to amplify the anxiety and depression.

You are NOT losing "the" battle. We're here for you!!! And just to make you smile......