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melly2210 posted:
Weather: Wet

Sleep: Yeah right

Mood: Severely depressed

Plans: Ruminate. Wedding is indefinately postponed. Why, you ask? Because the step-daughter isn't talking to us. And my ex (and/or his wife) who both knew we'd planned it for the beginning of next week decided to allow my youngest to go off with his uncle for a week. He leaves tomorrow. Other than being finally married the other thing I wanted most was for our children to be there because we should be melding our families together. Instead I am sitting here crying because I am realizing that no matter what I do, the ex and family will sabotage that dream and the drama of the step-daughter will do the same. I somehow need to wrap my mind around the fact that our families will not be there. :.(

Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
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beej5 responded:
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((melly)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))


Weather: 90's again sunny

Sleep: good

Mood: anxious

Plans: go for labs before doc's appt Monday. Clean up my apt before my dad gets here to pick me up.

just hope we don't clash.

beej
 
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bpcookie responded:
Melly honey bunny, Ive read your other post but my brain isnt working just yet, meds. uuuggghhh. A heartless X will always try to ruin everything. The only way to beat him at his own game is to be one step ahead of him. Your a very smart person and although he may have screwed your plans up this time, dont let him do it next time.

Ohhh and the step daughter, I totally feel for you sweetie. I had steps kids at one time too.

Me and hubby had planned on having this big wedding. I even had the big beautiful wedding dress and veil. We ended up getting tired of the entire thing and we ran off to Nevada. Nobody was at the weddiing and I left that big beautiful dress at home.

Things will eventually work out honey. It will all fall together, one way or another. Big hugs and lots of muahs
The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be only the beginning. ~Ivy Baker Priest
 
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bpcookie responded:
Hello Beeper peepers, beep

Weather: hot

Sleep: (poss. trigger) woke at 4:30 and could get back to sleep. Had a bad dream. Something small triggered a reoccurring dream that I hadnt had in a while. When I had gotten a divorce I had to leave all my dogs and the rescue dogs with my X. I was terrified that they would get fed or watered. Ever since then I have a reoccurring dream that I have forgotten to water and feed my dogs. Its just a terrible dream.

Mood: ok but I feel really loopy today. I havent even taken my Lyrica, so I dont know what is causing it.

Plans: TGIF!!!! Some tv, some ball throwing for poochy, some time watching a movie with hubby, some crafting (maybe).

love ya's muahs
The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be only the beginning. ~Ivy Baker Priest
 
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melly2210 replied to bpcookie's response:
It's like I don't matter. I give and play nice even when I don't want to. Heck, the ex is sitting in rehab and I COULD do exactly to him that he did to me when I hit the peek of this illness. But I won't. I can't bring myself to that point. The whole situation is just so hurtful. Add with it the drama from the step-daughter, and I just can't handle anymore. My excitement and happiness over this wedding has just disappeared. Gone. I don't care about it anymore. And that scares me. I just want one thing, just one, to go as planned. But I know that is never going to happen. What was worse yesterday was I found out via an innocent text message to my oldest. He was out at his martial arts class, and I guess my response was kind of short so he had my youngest call me when he got home. I was crying and fought it all back. He could hear that, even as I told him to please go and have fun and it wasn't his fault. It was the grown ups fault. He kept asking me if I was ok, and I know he feels bad and I made it worse. Ok...crying again. BBL

Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson
 
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mercygive responded:
Weather: Hot

Sleep: Okish

Mood: Good; it is just the back pain that is making me irritable

Plans: Talked to my boss last night and decided to stay home again today. I am still grabbing onto the counters and anything else to hold onto when I walk, but I have to walk or I get stiff. The pain killers and muscle relaxers aren't affecting me too much as far as making me hey-la-li-la-li and I'm glad because I was little worried about taking them with the Seroquel. Someone on this board recently mentioned you can burn yourself on a heating pad — for sure! I have a big red spot on my back but it doesn't hurt or maybe I just can't tell yet.
Dh said his interview went well yesterday, and that's a good thing because he no longer has a job! I'm not stressed out about it for some reason — not yet anyway — when I think about it his joblessness is kind of like the big red spot on my back.

Have a good day and hugs if you need one

Choose life, God's Grace and humor - mercygive


 
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DizzyJgirl responded:
(((Melly)) So sorry for this heart ache that you are experiencing. You deserve so much better. Can you do what Cookie said and either just go away somewhere, even for a day, or just make it all a surprise...pick a time when nobody would suspect anything maybe. You deserve a happy day. Maybe you can do something with the families after the actual wedding. Do a separate celebration of the melding of your families. Take care...many hugs.
Live Life Loud
 
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DizzyJgirl replied to bpcookie's response:
Sorry about your dream/nightmare sweets. I have things like that but the crazy part is those hit me when I am awake. I forget what that is called. Anyhoo...have fun with Chewy and enjoy some relaxation time. muahs
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DizzyJgirl replied to mercygive's response:
Awww Mercy...sorry for your pain and dh's joblessness. I hope both are resolved soon.

For me:

Weather: sunny and hot but not as bad as yesterday.

Sleep: so so

Mood: very anxious, tired but trying.

Plans: puppy care (what else) Came very close to another meltdown last night. It wasn't good but I held it together better than last week.

Its a tiny bit odd to me..I tell my pdoc about things going on and my feelings/moods and she says not to worry, its normal. Really?? Part of me is relieved I am "normal" and part of me is resentful.

Have a good day! xo
Live Life Loud
 
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lexismom11 responded:
Good Afternoon;

Weather: 70's and sunny

Sleep: Good

Mood: OK

Plans: Going to take my daughter to the movies to see Brave. I tried to get her to see Men In Black 3 but she wasn't having that. Went to the store. Otherwise that is it.
 
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bpcookie replied to mercygive's response:
Mercy hun, I live with a heating pad attached to my back. I have chronic back pain and use the heating pad every day. My back get very red but the heating pad is the only thing that makes my back feel better.

What happened to your back? Why is it hurting you? Sorry if you have explained this before but Im on Lyrica and sometimes it makes me very very loopy and I cant remember things.

Anyways, I hope your back gets better soon. muahs
The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be only the beginning. ~Ivy Baker Priest
 
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bpcookie replied to DizzyJgirl's response:
Dizzy dahling, So sorry to hear that you almost had a meltdown. Im not sure whats going on over there but I do know how it feels to freak out. Take care sweetie and have a good evening. muahs
The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be only the beginning. ~Ivy Baker Priest
 
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bpcookie replied to lexismom11's response:
Hello Lexismom hun, Have fun at the movies with your daughter. Take care and have a great evening. hugs
The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be only the beginning. ~Ivy Baker Priest
 
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mommaange1 replied to lexismom11's response:
My 15 yr old son said men in black 3 sucked. You will probably enjoy Brave more )
If We Couldn't Laugh, We Would All Go Insane :)
 
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mommaange1 responded:
Wow, ready all the posts today, it sounds as if everyone is having a terrible Friday. It's like Friday the 13th. Even I have an issue today. My kitten has been really sick after her spay. She developed this huge infection and her tummy blew up like a balloon. I just got her out of the hospital yest. after getting her temp down from 107. This morning she developed a tiny blister near her incision and about an hour later her tummy burst and was so awful that I almost passed out. Rushed her back to vet oozing and bleeding all over. We got her fixed up but she now has this big hole in her tummy. How could a spay almost kill my kitten.

Hopefully tomorrow everyone's day will be better

weather 90ish again

sleep for 2 weeks now I wake at exactly 1:00, 3:13 and 5:17. Freaky. At first I thought the stress with the marriage but now with the the exact times, I am freaked out

mood anxious and upset

plans take care of kitty
If We Couldn't Laugh, We Would All Go Insane :)


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