Bipolar Disorder Community

Hello to everyone. My name is Sarah, I'm 23 years old and was diagnosed with bipolar at 15. i have been struggling with it, or at least with symptoms, since i was a child. my symptoms are mostly under control now that i have a good mixture of medication, including Depakote, Wellbutrin, Klonopin, Prozac, and fish oil to help with mood regulation. it has been an incredibly long and rough battle with my bipolar. i am now engaged to a great guy and am trying to get through school and find a good job. there is really no one in my life who truly understands what it's like to live with bipolar. i'm starting to cry writing that because even though i'm doing ok, there are times when i just need to let my weird emotions and thoughts out without being judged and there's really no one i can do that with. i've never participated in an online support group but i thought i'd give it a try since we all have this in common. i'm trying to open myself up more to support because i tend to close off.
my bipolar became most pronounced when i was 14, which was when i developed anorexia. i struggled for years with it. i was in treatment for two years straight and it took an enormous toll on me. i continued to struggle after the bouts of treatment, including two suicide attempts, one scarily close to successful. while i am well into recovery now, my experiences with the bipolar/eating disorder and the things that happened to me and that i did during that time haunt me sometimes. i wish i had an outlet to get all of it out but it makes my loved ones uncomfortable to hear the details of my struggles. i met my fiancee after i went into recovery from anorexia. he stayed by my side last year when i had a crippling bout of depression and mania. i am what they call a "rapid cycler," meaning instead of going between mania and depression every few days or weeks, the extremes occur multiple times a day. it takes everything out of me. thankfully it has not happened that badly since but i continue to have a hard time.
my fiancee is wonderful. we've been together for two years and hope to get married in late 2011. the problem, though, is that he doesn't realize that while my symptoms are mostly under control, i am still bipolar by nature and he doesn't respect the limits that i have. i'm not saying i limit myself as a person in the things i can do because i'm bipolar, but i do have a shorter fuse and less tolerance for certain things, though i'm working on it. he cuts me hardly any slack and while i don't want to use bipolar as an excuse for things, the truth is that it truly does affect my day-to-day life and the way i see and think about things. it's just hard because he simply thinks i'm just "too sensitive." i think he believes that as long as i'm on meds, bipolar doesn't affect me. you all know that not true. i don't know how to communicate that to him.
i struggle alot at work because i get bored quickly, and restless, and become unhappy with my situation. i lose motivation quickly and have trouble keeping jobs.
i'm a psychology major in school and would like to specialize in helping families of children with special needs and mood disorders. i love to help people. school is difficult too because i don't know how to keep my motivation up in the face of challenges and boredom.
well, i'm sorry if i've rambled. i wanted to introduce myself and give a little bit of a background. i hope i can be of help to everybody here just as i seek to find the same support. thanks for reading