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Do you have Borderline Personality Disorder? This new Exchange has been developed so we can encourage each other, share tips to get through those down days, and/or just vent.
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susiep1963 posted:
I am searching for answers but overwhelmed with questions right now. I have been in therapy and on disability for 12 years, therapy longer than that. I feel like I have not made much progress. I see people I met online who have moved on and I'm still here. I have little support in real life, my mom is 93 and understands nothing and my son is 21 and doesn't really care. I do have a precious little chihuahua that is about all I live for right now. I have a lot of stuff going on, mental like depression and anxiety and physical like diabetes, IBS, and a host of other small things. I recently went back to old journals i had locked up and old therapist's reports and that's what lead me to this part of the site. She originally said I had borderline personality disorder, but never really explained it or what to do about it. So I thought maybe coming here and posting would help me learn and get me on the right track finally.
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it_is_what_it_is responded:
hi sushi 1963, i mention in another post that i found Mary tips very helpful. (identifying bpd) i am also new to this site and although i have live with dds all my life,(since i was 5- i was just diagnosed wit bpd i am trying to learn new copping skills. i will start a new thread and see if any one has any advice. glade you found us, hope to see you around the key board.....
 
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susiep1963 responded:
I'm so confused now. I went back to the old reports to read and make sure I understood what it said. Originally in 98 she said this: Anxiety disorder with panic attacks; Dysthymic disorder; schizoaffective disorder; post-traumatic stress disorder, delayed onset; and paranoid tendencies. Ok then in 02 she wrote in her report this: Major depression with psychotic features and frequent suicidal ideation, superimposed on Dysthymic disorder; Generalized anxiety disorder with panic episodes; post-traumatic stress disorder, severe, delayed onset; and Mixed personality disorder with borderline and paranoid characteristics, severe. So now I have no idea what I am or where I belong. I have had experiences in the past year that make me think I'm worse. I was going to paranormal sites to try to explain what I thought could be spirits, but now I think, although I believe some experience this, I don't think I am. If I was seeing or hearing the things I think, my dogs who are in the room with me would be reacting too. This leads me to believe it's all in my head and something I didn't have before.
 
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it_is_what_it_is replied to susiep1963's response:
have had many diagnoses also. from the time i was 8 till know ( 50ish) one thing i notice is as the field of mental illness grow the standard for different diagnoses change, so you might not have fit in one category but now you do. i have never been diagnosed with bpd either although after reading about it i can see how i fit in. instead of spending time on trying to figure out what i am or why i am the way i am i have decided to try to become the person i want to be. i have no idea if this will work. but if i have to ride this merry go round i might as well have something to hang on to. i hope this dose not add to your confusion
 
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marysings replied to susiep1963's response:
Have you thought of "starting over" with a new therapist? You've had so many diagnosis' that it is no wonder you are troubled with who you really are.

Look for a Psychologist because they have more training than just a social worker/therapist.

And understand that it should take several months before you get a diagnosis. And when that happens, ask for a lot of information so you fully understand your diagnosis.

I wish you all the best!
Mary
I'm strong willed and I tell it like it is. I make mistakes, I'm sometimes out of control, but I love and give with all my heart. Have patience with me as I heal.


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