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Do you have Borderline Personality Disorder? This new Exchange has been developed so we can encourage each other, share tips to get through those down days, and/or just vent.
I don't know what to believe
56deb posted:
I was diagnosed with bpd around 1993, I have been treated and institutionalized that same yr. I have been on countless, medications.
Right now I'm on paroxetine 40mg a day, I'm not sure if it is helping as I'm also on strong meds for cronic pian.
I move around allot and told my dr. about my diagnoses from before. My Dr. seems to think that was wrong and that I am fine. I talk about my not trusting, and my past and present, and my anger issues but she just doesn't believe, that, that is my problem. I have had and still have most of the behaviors, but try not to dewell on them. As you well know that doesn't always work. I often ask my better half what is wrong with me, and he says there is nothing wrong.
I can't seem to hang on to friendships. I isolate myself and now can't go out on my own. I'm lonely and angry with everything in my life except for Brian he has gone through allot with me.
I am 58, and have absolutetly no family they have all deserted me. Its been ten years. since I have seen my daughters, and 30 since I have seen my siblings. Both of my parents are dead my mom died when I was 3. My dad in 1986. No lose there.
So i try to believe I'm okay and some days I do.

MarySings responded:
Do you see a counselor? There is help for Borderlines!

If the "dr" you are referring to is who you see for counseling - fire her. You don't have to pay for help that doesn't really help you.

If you don't have a counselor and you want to get into counseling, find someone who is trained in treating Borderlines. Some therapists will only have one BPD patient. We are high maintenance!

I am very sorry that your daughters have pulled away from you! It hurts a lot, doesn't it?

Deb, I'm glad you reached out in the community. There is an excellent community for Depression:

Not knowing your problems that led you to develop BPD, there is also another community you might be interested in:

This community board can be very slow but post as often as you want to. I check this several times a day.

I'm strong willed and I tell it like it is. I make mistakes, I'm sometimes out of control, but I love and give with all my heart. Have patience with me as I heal.

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