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An_241518 posted:
Idk what I should write.It seems everyone writes their story? So here goes mine ^_^. I'm 22 years old, attending college 2,000 miles from home, and still in the process of discovering myself. It has been a rough journey, as I am sure most people's has. I never really thought I had a problem, until I we talked about certain things in my nursing class. I then looked it up online, and I thought, hmm, does that apply to me? Maybe. I know I discovered my depression when I was 19 and realized I had it since I was 14. Just I never really thought of it like that. I thought it was just me being a teenager, you know, the suicidal thoughts, cutting, with-drawn, walled-in teenager. And then, like i said before, i discovered in my class that i also have bulemia? Also since i was 14. Again, never considered it bulemia. I never have lost weight, but my weight has always fluctuated...losing 10-20 lbs then gaining it back. Usually through randomly intense excercise periods, bouts of starving myself/throwing up/binging/vomiting after binges. I've always done this, but never thought about it much cuz I have stomach problems. But, i think maybe i have been using this as an excuse? who knows. anyways, i've never really told anyone my issues except a close friend of mine who does his best to support me when i'm down. I know I should talk to my doctor or my family about it, but not sure how to begin or start? I've always been the 'good' kid who tries to do the right thing no matter what, and just having this burden with me, and having to tell this to my family, i have no idea how to go about it. Any ideas? Thanks...and btw, thanks for taking the time to read .
2 Replies |Watch This Discussion | Report This| Share this:HmmmIdk what I should write.It seems everyone writes their story? So here goes mine ^_^. I'm 22 years old, attending college 2,000 miles from home, and still in the process of discovering myself. It has been a rough journey, as I am sure most people's has. I never really thought I had a problem, until I we talked about certain things in my nursing class. I then looked it up online, and I thought, hmm, does that apply to me? Maybe. I know I discovered my depression when I was 19 and realized I had it since I was 14. Just I never really thought of it like that. I thought it was just me being a teenager, you know, the suicidal thoughts, cutting, with-drawn, walled-in teenager. And then, like i said before, i discovered in my class that i also have bulemia? Also since i was 14. Again, never considered it bulemia. I never have lost weight, but my weight has always fluctuated...losing 10-20 lbs then gaining it back. Usually through randomly intense excercise periods, bouts of starving myself/throwing up/binging/vomiting after binges. I've always done this, but never thought about it much cuz I have stomach problems. But, i think maybe i have been using this as an excuse? who knows. anyways, i've never really told anyone my issues except a close friend of mine who does his best to support me when i'm down. I know I should talk to my doctor or my family about it, but not sure how to begin or start? I've always been the 'good' kid who tries to do the right thing no matter what, and just having this burden with me, and having to tell this to my family, i have no idea how to go about it. Any ideas? Thanks...and btw, thanks for taking the time to read <img src="http://img.webmd.com/community/images/smile.gif" align="top" border="0">.
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kml78 responded:
I am very proud of you for sharing this information. Often I find that just putting the words out there can help us admit that maybe we need some help. That is what they say is the first step, right?? It's hard when you have always been the one people look to as the "good" one to admit that maybe you aren't as perfect as they thought but know that you are loved by your family and it sounds like you have a good friend who has stood by you and these people will be your support now that you know perhaps you need them. Depression and anxiety are both illnesses with treatment available and all you need to do now is contact your doctor and say "Hey, I have some questions about this and want to know what I need to do to get through it". Good luck to you!
Report This| Share this:HmmmI am very proud of you for sharing this information. Often I find that just putting the words out there can help us admit that maybe we need some help. That is what they say is the first step, right?? It's hard when you have always been the one people look to as the "good" one to admit that maybe you aren't as perfect as they thought but know that you are loved by your family and it sounds like you have a good friend who has stood by you and these people will be your support now that you know perhaps you need them. Depression and anxiety are both illnesses with treatment available and all you need to do now is contact your doctor and say "Hey, I have some questions about this and want to know what I need to do to get through it". Good luck to you!
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godlim responded:
My dear, first off, I would like to say that it takes great strength to admit or talk about MI, let alone to complete strangers on a website. But sometimes, it is the easiest and most comfortable way to start talking about your problems. I don't know if you have a diagnosis in BPD. As of what you described, you don't fit the DSM IVs criteria, but I am not looking at you and talking to you, so I would recommend, to get a referral from you GP to see a psychiatrist. Because GP's only are equipped to treat depression, and rarely ADHD. So chances are, you will get referred anyways, and if not, I seriously question that doctors ethical practices. But anyho, just find a therapist, and a psychiatrist, and start to put together a support network for you. If you feel your family, will be accepting of a MH diagnosis, than feel free to tell them about such things. But, if you think they will find it controversial, you should probably wait for another time in which you have the strength, and know what you are going to say. I speak merely from personal experience, so dont think that, thats the way it always is. Best of luck to you.
-Kirsta
You cannot love anyone with your whole heart, if you do not first love yourself.
Report This| Share this:HmmmMy dear, first off, I would like to say that it takes great strength to admit or talk about MI, let alone to complete strangers on a website. But sometimes, it is the easiest and most comfortable way to start talking about your problems. I don't know if you have a diagnosis in BPD. As of what you described, you don't fit the DSM IVs criteria, but I am not looking at you and talking to you, so I would recommend, to get a referral from you GP to see a psychiatrist. Because GP's only are equipped to treat depression, and rarely ADHD. So chances are, you will get referred anyways, and if not, I seriously question that doctors ethical practices. But anyho, just find a therapist, and a psychiatrist, and start to put together a support network for you. If you feel your family, will be accepting of a MH diagnosis, than feel free to tell them about such things. But, if you think they will find it controversial, you should probably wait for another time in which you have the strength, and know what you are going to say. I speak merely from personal experience, so dont think that, thats the way it always is. Best of luck to you. <br />-Kirsta
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