Hi Rukia !
Welcome if you have not been here before. This is an awsome site with some of the most fantastic people !! We all help each other and I haven't encountered one person that I didn't like ! There is support, compassion, education and even some humor. You will love it here and it will grow to become a sanctuary. It is my refuge when I feel low and worried. I am sooooo thankful I found it and can not imagine how I would have managed all this without it.
Back to you..........Not in the nodes, FANTASTIC !!!!! Nerve damage, yes, that hits home. I have my share of that too. Sense I had a lumpectomy and 8 nodes removed, my nerve damage is just on my right side. BUT...........even with me having a lumpectomy and node removal, I still have nerve damage as my right arm pit and arm still have numbness/tenderness/sensitivity and even pains from time to time. I had 3 surgeries to get to clear margins on the same tumor site plus the node removal incision that once healed was ruptured open again from the inside out from a seroma that ruptured and was infected. That was during radiation treatments which was an ordeal because of it. That made for complications during radiation. And I am still healing from all that. I finished radiation in January.
Your other issues I am familiar with also..........I have fybroidmyalgia and Rhumatoid and hypothyroidism. And there is bi-polar disorder in my family, a VERY close relative. Not an easy rode I know. It seems when my cancer was found all my other problems started having problems. What a circle of NO fun !!!
Your first oncologist appt will be ok, I was nervous about mine too but it was fine. I have 3 doctors now, my oncologist, my radiation doctor and my surgeon. Hopefully Rachael will put you on pinkie bus for Thursday. I know she will find your post and explain it to you in case you do not already know. In fact I need to catch a ride on that bus for Monday when I see my radiation doctor for a post-radiation check up.
I am sorry you have no family or friends close by. Even more a better reason to let us on this site become your family/friends to help lend you support and friendship thru what you are and will be going thru. These wonderful people on here are so good at it. They have been there for me and me for them.
Please come here often and read other posts as many times that can be sooooooo helpful. And feel free to post often yourself, ask questions, offer info or just say hello. Someone is always here to answer !
Take care and stay in touch !
~Smiles.:>}
Pat~sadblossom