Before my daughter was born, I decided I would breastfeed exclusively. I couldnt have been happier when she latched on perfectly from day 1. It was easy for her - but I've been struggling. I stuck it out through cluster feelings lasting 3.5hrs long in the hospital, through cracked and bleeding nipples. Sometimes it would hurt so bad I would cry when she nursed. She was hungry ALL the time, spending 4.5-6hrs a day just nursing (between actually nursing and me trying to keep her awake at the breast). It was emotionally, mentally and physically draining but I tried to stick with it. Family kept trying to make me give her formula, which made me feel like I wasn't doing a good enough job and with all the raging hormones and fears of being a new mom, I eventually cracked under the constant pressure. I regret it every second of the day and it kills me when she eats a bottle.
I cant remember exactly when she was first given formula, but my daughter is 2 weeks old now. Since she's been eating about 50/50 breast and formula, she seems so miserable. She only poops once every few days, and she gets terrible gas pains that make her hysterical. I keep trying to switch back to breast only but it's been a challenge. She'll nurse for 45 minutes on each breast, and still root, suck hard on her hands and cry out. After 1.5 hrs of nursing, she'll still take 2 oz from a bottle. Sometimes 4 oz. When I pump, I'm only getting 1-2oz at a time. I'm sick of using formula, but I don't want to deny my baby food when she's hungry.
Does anyone know how much milk I should be able to pump? Is it normal to spend so much time nursing? Has anyone else been able to break the vicious cycle, or are we doomed to supplement with formula forever now?