Clomid Community

I hope everyone has a good wkend! I hear you about the friends with babies or pregnant thing. I'm praying to get a positive next weekend. If I don't I'm going to be a mess. We have my husband's boss' party next saturday. I will either get AF that day or not. There is a couple that will be there who are due in August, and I used to speak with the wife about trying-last year. None of them know a out my miscarriage, and I won't say anything. I just feel like I'll be the oddone. You know? It's super frustrating. Please I had a cousin who was SO insensitive toward me bc she was pregnant. Part of me just wanted to tell her off, but I'd look like the bad person. She purposely had me discussing a topic I was avoiding like the plague-and once she had me in tears said, oh we don't have to talk about it if you're upset. My brother told me I need boundaries with ppl! hence, why I don't speak with just anyone and everyone about this very delicate subject! Where in NJ are you? I'm not from NJ, but currently live in northern NJ. We will all someday get our BFPs. Just hope it's soon!

Hi,

It does stink and especially when we all have to go to fun events are there is always families or pregnant woman. Of course I am happy for each and every one of these woman who are pregnant and my friends, but when you are trying to have a baby of your own , sometimes you feel like no one understands except those who are going through a similar situation. I also need to be careful about who I talk about with my private issues. Some people are so self absorbed it makes me sick. I once said to my sister when she was telling everyone how weird it feels when the baby kicks and I screamed "well I wouldn't know. Not nice of me, but this Clomid I tell you is dangerous ha.

Today I am going to a going away party for my hubby's cousin and they know we are struggling. I am going to avoid the "Hi guys how are things: conversation and just focus on the cousin who is moving lol. If someone does or says something to annoy me they better watch out b/c this Clomid has made me a BABYZILLA.

My whole body is crossed that you and the other girls testing next weekend get your BFP. Please I need some hope over here k.

I am from central , NJ near Princeton University. I am 45 min for NY, 45 min from Phili and 45 min to the Jersey shore. I went to High school with the Situation from that show haha. I love the NJ housewives too. Do you watch them at all? Do you live near them? Okay sorry I babling have a great weekend and happy thoughts.

Ha that was great made me laugh out loud "BABYZILLA" Im gonna have to use that sometime.

lol. When I was engaged and planning my wedding I was in love with Bridezilla's, so now my hubby calls me Babyzilla and says I dream about dancing babies hahaha (good to have a sense of humor)

So how do you feel? Any sign of AF? You are testing tomorrow morning right? Please let me know what happens k
Baby dust

Too funny your more excited and "wanting" me to test then DH. I dont think men fully get this whole trying thing and the big issue we gals have with testing.Yes if i get up the nerve i will be testing in the am unless AF shows over night.

Ok so apparently I made 2 accounts at one time and somehow logged in and forgot that I was using Baby parks Account! So Baby Parks and Curbow are the same person. Sorry for the confusion! I will try to start using Baby parks from now on! Thanks!

What Doctor do you see? Is it a fertility specialist? I use a Dr. Harper here where I live and I love him! He is so positive and that makes a huge difference!

I understand some of your concern about your age! That was my biggest concern when trying with my son Parker(hence the name baby parks)! I didn't want to be old and have kids but the more and more I would think about my age the more God would show me Genesis 18 where he told Abraham and Sarah they would have a child named Isaac. They were both very old and advanced in age, you should read it if you haven't! It is really good! Sarah was past the age of child bearing and laughed when the Lord told her she would bear a child the next year because she said After I am worn out and my master is old, will I now have this pleasure. Abraham was 100 yrs old when his son Isaac was born. http://niv.scripturetext.com/genesis/18.htm

It must be frustrating to know that you tried IUI and they are getting the sperm exactly where it needs to be and it's not working still. The only thing I can tell you is the obvious you probably don't want to hear. It's what I have had to deal with alot in the past year. It just isn't time for me to have a baby right now! I am not here to preach or anything like that but I just wanted to share a small part of my life with you all in hopes it will help some! I want to share 2 stories with you. The first story is of a dear person I know. She tried to get pregnant for a while and finally did and then miscarried at 15 weeks. She was 27 at the time. She then tried for nearly 3 years to get pregnant again and she had IUI and clomid for several different cycles and different things done and nothing would work for them. Her husband and her both tested normal, HSG done and tubes were clear ect. People of course told her the usual we hear to relax, quit worrying, and don't stress and of course that never works but she tried her best to do those things during all this and nothing helped! She was so confused why God allowed her to get pregnant and then finally when she did to miscarry, but we have to trust he knows best for us and that is so hard to do at times and something I struggle with. She tried her last try and after 3 years of going on and off to the fertility dr she said enough is enough I give up. I started out with my husband and this is not worth ruining my marriage over and she said forget it all! The very next month she got pregnant! She told me she isn't sure if its because the clomid she had taken the month before had helped regulate her or what but she did get pregnant. She just had her baby back in April and had a very traumatic birth experience much like I had but way worse. Her baby was born lifeless and they didn't think he was going to be able to be revived but he was able to and is alive and doing well now after 2 weeks in the NICU. He is doing much better now, she had a huge scare with him and doctors had told her they didn't think he would live, but he is truly a miracle as all precious babies are! I have another friend who I had been confiding in the past few months because I was down and starting to get somewhat disappointed that it was taking so long this time. I honestly didn't expect it to take this long the 2nd time because I always like you heard after having the first i'll be fine! Well anyways, my friend and I had been talking and her and her husband are not trying to have a baby at all. She was telling me what a hard time she had with her first baby and how she got very depressed and very angry and bitter with other people who she knew that were pregnant(some of what I felt when I was trying with Parker) she waited a year before she got pregnant with her baby girl. After she got pregnant she had a horrible pregnancy she had to have surgery every 4 weeks to have a painful stent replaced because her kidneys were being pinched somehow and causing it to not drain right so she had to have stents replaced alot. Continue in post

Ok sorry, she had kidney problems so bad and ended up losing 15 pounds during her pregnancy(and she was not overweight before pregnancy)They had to do ultrasounds all along because she wasn't growing good and doctors had predicted her to have problems from being malnourished because my friend couldn't keep anything down whatsoever. It was all she could do to eat crackers it was bad. She was on bed rest for 10 weeks and she did exactly what they said too. She said it was terrible. I can remember her going through it because she and I were pregnant at the same time, her baby was due 2 months after mine. We weren't real close then but we are closer now than we were when i was pregnant or I would have been there to help her out more and feel bad that i didn't help her now. Anyways, she finally had her baby and had a very easy delivery and healthy baby girl with no problems and she is happy and healthy today! This same friend just told me 2 weeks ago that she found out she is pregnant(she was very shocked and somewhat upset). She had to write me a long letter telling me how sorry she was and that she hoped I wouldn't be mad at her because I have been talking to her this whole time about how much I am struggling with becoming pregnant with my second baby and she was telling me that they are going to have to wait until August to start trying and that she would probably get on some sort of clomid this time since she had such a hard time with the last baby and she assumed it would take her a long time this time as well. But not so, she got pregnant and her and her husband were "bickering" during her(so called ovulatory phase, or the week she thought she was supposed to ovulate anyways and she said they didn't do anything for 10 days. She said I don't understand how in the world I am pregnant, it turns out she ovulated very late, she has irregular cycles somewhat like I have, I never know when I will ovulate and cycles are 25-33 days so i never know. So she is right at 7 weeks pregnant and now she is excited. Her 2nd baby will be here around first of march! I say all that to say this! You just never know. God could bless you with twins you just never know what he has in store for you. My husband and I are also considering adoption and have thought about that for some time. It is not for everyone and it's something we have to pray about and make sure it is the right decision for us but it is something we both want to explore. I do know this, God knows better what I need than I do. It is hard for me to understand that and accept that at times. I don't like what he has to say sometimes and that he makes me wait and I want something right now but I think he is trying to get my attention. He is wanting me to trust him and know he knows best for us! He may be preventing me from something I am not aware of, something that I wouldn't be able to handle. So I do not want to get pregnant if it is not his will for my life. That is my prayer now. Lord if it is your will make this IUI and clomid and shot work! If not I will still praise you because you are my savior and I love you! I will say it is so much easier since I have Parker. I will not even lie to you! It was bad when I was trying with him and I didn't trust the Lord like I should have. I was bitter when all my friends around me were pregnant and I wasn't. I was also the last of my Close friends to get pregnant. One of them got pregnant twice when i hadn't even been pregnant at all yet. It was very hard. I struggled on a daily basis with it and it caused my husband and I some struggles and I didn't want to be around many people because it was depressing. I just want to encourage you honestly. I don't want to try to make you feel better, I know I can't. There is nothing I can say to make you feel better but know I will be praying for you and am thinking about you often. I will pray you get pregnant this month. I am very specific with my prayers. God likes to be in every part of our lives!!

One more thing and I'm done! In response to the IUI, I took the ovidrel shot tonight at 10pm and go in Monday morning at 10am for IUI. Is this what you did with your IUI? They scheduled the appt for 36 hours after my shot? I don't know I felt like I was starting to ovulate on my own but I don't really know.When I went in friday they did ultrasound/bloodwork and dr said it would be a while so he was going to trigger me. So i was glad of that since timing is key I guess. And with my last baby it is a long long story. But to make it brief I started having contractions at 38 1/2 weeks and went in because I had some bloody discharge. Got there and nurse told me his heart rate was bottoming out and they had to get him out quick. She told me it was a good thing I came in when I did or I would have had a dead baby(her exact words to me) I was terrified and at this point literally shaking in the bed. The dr. came in told me I had to have an emergency c-section and at first thought i would have an epidural but said there wasn't time for that so they used general anesthesia on me. Before getting wheeled back to the OR the anesthesiologist told me about 20 different ways I could die(no joke) my husband and I just had our mouths opened in disbelief at what she was telling me. I have 4 minutes to get the baby out and sometimes they baby won't make it ect. and just very very negative the whole time. After I agreed to do the surgery they wheeled me out the door as I am signing papers and being wheeled to OR. They run into both sets of doors on the way to the OR. My husband had to help them get one of them because they were so crazy acting. I get back to the OR where I am alone without anyone but the crazy nurse that told me my baby would have been dead and the dr. and anesthesiologist that are the worst 2 combination of people that could have been put together i was told later. This doctor was the one doctor I did not want to deliver my baby but was on call as my doctor was out of town. SO Dr. and anesthesiologist were fighting the entire time and I was awake during this time and heard it all. One of the ladies assured me I was going to be ok because I was panicking and the anesthesiologist jumped all over her and said you know not to tell her she is going to be ok you know the chances that she won't make it or the baby won't make it so don't be telling her things that you don't know. So after they finally put the catheter in me(without any pain meds might i add) and started prepping me they finally gave me something to put me to sleep. Then I wake up and am crying in pain. They didn't order me any pain meds for my C-section I just had woke up from. I was in terrible pain until they got me the pain pump later. Parker was born 5lb 11 oz but I didn't get to see him. He was taken to the NICU where I was to be watched close because he was having trouble breathing. He had aspirated meconium and wasn't able to breathe on his own. My husband was a wreck and I had no idea what was really going on. All I knew is he needed to be at a better hospital where they had a much better NICU. So they finally after 12 hours transferred him to HH and got him all set up. I stayed at the hospital where I was for 3 days until I finally got to meet my son in the NICU. I had a very hard time bringing him home on day 8 from the hospital because the NICU doctors let him leave with an O2 level of around 90% which is very low. They like it to be 97-100 but they assured me he was fine and that he was just an 89-90% baby. Well seeing the monitors had me freaked out about it too. When we got him home it took me several weeks to get back to normal because I was having major Panick attacks about his breathing. I didnt feel normal and didnt think i would ever feel normal again. But soon after the right meds and rest I came around and here I am after all that wanting to do it all over again! I have said my piece today I think, sorry so long on all my post!

I accidentally replied to myself in one of the post so make sure you find the one where i replied to myself baby parks(baby parks replied to baby parks)! I also wanted to note that the anesthesiologist that I had got fired. Apparently they were watching her very close and she had some other problems going on and my case pushed her out the door. So I was glad to know that she won't be practicing anymore. She was forced to move where she is not able to practice anymore and they took her license. I was sort of relieved at that. Too bad the crazy dr.that delivered me is still in town But she got him here safe and he is healthy and that is all that matters! I will keep praying for you this week and hope you have a good weekend. Maybe you will get to experience twins you never know, could be more

Hi Nicole,

We live about 10 min from the city. I can barely see it today because its SO hazy! Well, don't live in the same area as the housewives do--Franklin Lakes is probably 30 minutes north of here. I think--not 100%. Oh well. But yes, we do watch them. They're crazy ladies!

So, how are you doing? I only had a 23 day cycle. Super depressing, esp since I had done the OPKs and got the positives. We had tons of sex, and here we are. I contacted a fertility specialist this week tho, after I spoke with my dr. They are increasing me to 100 mg for the next cycle--and I'll start that dose tomorrow. The specialist said it sounds like I have a luteal phase defect--since the second half of my cycle was so short. I will go in for an appt with them on CD 19--because we will be away for vaca, but I made it for the day after we get back. Anyways, as soon as I hung up with them, I did research on the luteal phase defect. It explains really why I had my miscarriage, and also why its difficult getting pregnant. A couple of sites recommended natural supplements to increase progesterone (Which goes hand in hand with the luteal phase). So I bought those last night and started them today. I PRAY this works for me!

I guess, the way we can think of other people is this---many don't know you're going through hard times-unless you've told them. A lot of people don't know, let alone, understand, what its like having a hard time conceiving. I think a lot of people take it for granted, because they didn't have struggles. They are so happy for themselves that they are pregnant and having kids, so in all fairness to them, they have to have their happiness. I know right now it doesn't seem easy to understand because we are not there. Someday though. Then we will get what it is they are going through. So, just smile and say congratulations! Even though inside you're crying. We have to put on the brave face. Regardless of what we really are feeling! Someday someone around you may be doing the same thing.

Well, hope things are good!

I love NYC. Do you go often? The ladies are crazy, but it makes a fun show.

It is true that many people don't understand what it is like to have trouble conceiving, so I shouldn't really talk about it with them.

It is great you are going to meet with someone. A short luteal phase can cause problems for sure. I also have read that online. It makes you feel a little better when knowing that there is someone helping you. Please keep me posted on how everything is and I wish you lots of baby dust

Hey Nicole how are you today? I am going to NYC the first of August. Would love to know some about what to do there. We plan to do the normal things, Statue of Liberty, Rockefellar center(spelling?) Times square, The big toys r us with some ride in it I think they said, anything else you can add? Hope you are having a good day. Tomorrow you find out how many follicles you will have right? Let me know how it goes, do you go early mornings? That is when I go btw 7-9am everytime. Hope you get great results tomorrow Baby dust BLow BLow

Hey. Well, I was working in the city for about a year and a half--so I would go all the time. Now that I don't work there, I get there a couple of times a month. It just depends on whats going on.

I have just learned not to talk to many people about what we are going through. I find that it takes the stress off of me, and when I want to talk to people about things I do. Otherwise, if I don't bring it up I don't have to talk about it.

I am excited to go to the fertility specialist. I just want answers sooner than later! Hopefully they can give me that. How are you feeling? What is going on with you?

Hey BabyParks. I just wanted to give you a couple ideas for when you go to New York. I would definitely hit up Ground Zero, especially if you haven't gone before. FAO Schwartz is a HUGE toy store, and it was in the movie Big with Tom Hanks (if you remember that movie?). They have a show a few times a day with the workers performing songs on the life sized key board/piano (its on the ground--the people dance on the keys--its cute for kids). Toys R Us in Times Square has a ferris wheel. Since the weather will be good, I would go to Central Park. They have the horses there, and even if you don't ride its nice to walk around there.