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Bitter....Party of 1
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Lin_Lou posted:
That's pretty much me these days. Trying to pull myself out of it but doing more trying than actually accomplishing it. The count of friends that are either or expecting or just had a baby is in the 30s now. Ugh. What to do....
Lindsey (31), Husband (33)
TTC on and off for 4 years
First 3 rounds of Clomid (50-150mg) = BFN
4th round of Clomid at 150mg again =
Onto Femara if this round isn't successful
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maragayle responded:
Agreed! You can make that party of two. Or party of...however many women are on the board! I have a coworker who suffered a stillbirth at 8 months, then miscarried again at 12 weeks a few months ago. She said she's basically stopped communication with people and become a hermit. No more going out, no more facebook. All anyone ever wants to talk about is their kids...which really is just rubbing salt in an open wound. I get where you're coming from. I'm there, too.
Me 23, DH 25, TTC 2 years,8 rounds Clomid,round two 7.5mg Femara this cycle, test 6/19 BFN, waiting for AF
 
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Lin_Lou replied to maragayle's response:
It's a terrible place to be stuck. I keep thinking that if I can finally get into a good head space and really feel okay and genuinely happy for people instead of bitter and resentful for them having the very thing that I want, more like, need....then maybe God will feel that I've passed this "test" and grant me a baby. Crazy thinking, I know, but these are the things that go through my brain. Hormone brain...

Also...I feel absolutely terrible for your coworker and her tremendously bad luck. I can't imagine being so close to getting your baby only to go home empty handed and heartbroken. I don't know how you recover from something like that. Give her my best please, Mara.
Lindsey (31), Husband (33). TTC on and off for 4 years. 4 rounds of Clomid (50-150mg) - BFN. On 1 round of Femara
 
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maragayle replied to Lin_Lou's response:
I think it gets a little bit easier over time. It never fully goes away, but I can look at a baby now without being completely resentful. The thing that still gets me, though, are the really, really, REALLY young pregnant girls (I say girls purposely) you see around. We went to a funeral Monday and I swear one of the girls there looked like she was 12. When you see things like that it's hard to believe that there's a plan and a reason for not being able to conceive. Very, very hard. Good luck! Keep your chin up.
Me 23, DH 25, TTC 2 years,8 rounds Clomid,round two 7.5mg Femara this cycle, test 6/19 BFN, waiting for AF
 
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Leah25Brooke2 replied to Lin_Lou's response:
I don't think your thinking is crazy. I feel that I need to learn to be grateful for what I have. I do feel like there is something I need to learn from all of this. I do have a daughter and thats what I feel I need to be grateful for. I have a good friend who had two daughters, and wanted many children, but was told she had less than a .01% chance of ever conceiving again because of so much scar tissue in her falliopian tubes. She was also told if she did find out she was pregnant, she needed to seek help because it would be ectopic. She told me her story one week and even though she had two children, she still had suffered from secondary infertility for years and she was finally happy and grateful for the life she had after years of bitterness, pain and resentment. The next week, she found out she was pregnant. It was not ecpotic, and a beautiful healthy baby girl was born in Feb of this year. She's doing well. That was an example to me of learning something from the situation. She had also tried IVF twice, with no success. And six rounds of clomid. To me, I will always believe God is in charge. Dr's told her she would never bear a child again, but they were wrong. Dr's don't know everything!
Me(25)DH(28)DD(3) TTC 2nd- 11 mos, 1st round of clomid - BFN, 2nd - MC, 3rd- BFN. Now, periods are regular, trying to conceive on our own. Periods are becoming irregular again...


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