Clomid Community

First, thank you ALL for being so supportive! It really helps to have a place to vent, judgement free. You ladies are fantastic, and I'm positive you'll all be amazing mothers!

I'm feeling a bit better about everything. The worst part is over. Bleeding seems to have stopped and it appears as though I've passed all of the tissue. Honestly, that was the most heartbreaking part because I couldn't help but think that I was seeing bits and pieces of my baby. I think it would have been easier to get a D&C (though more recovery time) emotionally, but my body seems to have taken care of everything.

I have an appointment on Tuesday for a checkup with the OB's office. Assuming they clear me, DH and I are all set to BD and start trying immediately. My pregnancy ended so early that there's no medical reason to wait. If I get AF on my own (should be 3 weeks or so), we can start back up with the Femara. If AF doesn't show in 3 weeks, we'll do BW to be on the safe side then medically induce AF. That will probably be the route we go since I don't seem to ovulate on my own.

Since I know the Femara will work for me, I asked if there were any medical reasons why we would have to stop after another 2 cycles. The nurse said she'd check with the RE, but there shouldn't be a reason we can't continue with the Femara. Originally we were going to do 6 cycles then explore other routes if we didn't get pregnant. I think I'd rather do this as natural as possible. If I don't have to do IUI, IVF, etc., I'd rather not. I know that would make DH feel better, too.

DH is amazing. He's been super supportive. Trials like these just affirm that I married the right person. If anything, we're closer now than we've ever been before. I think he's a bit sad, but he's admitted he's trying to be strong for my sake. He tells DS, "Give mommy extra hugs and kisses because Mommy's sad." Monday, after the ER visit, DS would spontaneously hug and kiss me throughout the day and say, "I love you Mama!"

We're trying to be optimistic. Early miscarriages mean there was something wrong developmentally and are the Big Guy's way of saying, "hey, we need to start over here." DH says someone was looking out for us when the pregnancy ended very early. Another plus is that I was only 5-6 weeks. The longer in the pregnancy, the more complications with m/c and stillbirth. If it had to happen, I'm glad it was now. The best thing we learned from all of this is that I CAN get pregnant! With some patience, determination and a whole lot of BDing, we should eventually have a little one of our own.