hello, J --
if you don't anticipate changing your insurance in the near future, you might want to consider using some of these resources to find free/low-cost medical care, including psychiatric help --
-- check out these websites --
http://www.freeclinics.us/freeclinic.php ,
http://www.needymeds.org/free_clinics.taf ,
http://www.findahealthcenter.hrsa.gov ,
http://www.freemedicalcamps.com ,
https://www.pparx.org/en//prescription/prescription_assistance_programs/free_clinic_finder , and
http://www.211.org ;
-- check out these websites to determine your eligibility for various govt assistance programs --
https://www.benefitscheckup.org/index.cfm?partner_id=0 , and
http://www.govbenefits.gov/govbenefits_en.portal?_nfpb=true&_pageLabel=gbcc_page_home&_nfls=false ;
-- check out the website for the "live united" campaign of the united way --
http://www.liveunited.org -- and do a "search" for your city or state to find medical care programs in your area;
-- call your city, county, or state dept of health and dept of family services (or something that sounds equivalent), and ask if there are free or low-cost clinics in your area;
-- go to the website for your state government, e.g.,
http:// www.your_state.gov , and click on every social services link you can find;
-- look for free or low-cost clinics at nearby medical schools, divinity schools, large hospitals, and university graduate programs in nursing, social work, or psychology; often students who are close to graduation provide health care under the close supervision of their instructors;
-- see if any hospitals near you have a social worker; often they have very extensive knowledge of hospital and community resources; and
-- check with churches, synagogues, and mosques to see if they have someone who does counseling; with many of these, you do not have to be a member, their only concern is that you are a person in need.
if any of these links do not work or are too hard to navigate, please let me know so that i can correct them or drop them from my list. thanks.
i'm wondering also if you might get some advice and support from one or more of the parenting groups here;
http://exchanges.webmd.com/webmd-exchanges/parenting-exchanges will take to you a kind of table of contents of the various parenting communities.
finally, altho it has been quite a while since i've read these and so my memory of their helpfulness may not be as accurate as i think it is, you may want to check out --
--
the feeling good handbook by david burns (
http://www.amazon.com/Feeling-Good-Handbook-David-Burns/dp/0452281326/ref=bxgy_cc_b_img_a ), which has workbook-type exercises, or
--
feeling good: the new mood therapy by david burns (
http://www.amazon.com/Feeling-Good-Therapy-Revised-Updated/dp/0380810336/ref=cm_cr_pr_product_top ).
i hope that you can find some relief soon; i know that raising an 11-month-old cannot be easy when you feel so bad.
-- susie margaret
what good is gold, or silver too, if your heart's not good and true -- hank williams, sr.