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Can I ask what it is you've been doing? You don't have to tell me... I am just wondering if it might be along the lines of something I do to 'cope'. If so, it is nice to know you're not alone, you know? Otherwise I don't have much to say. It's awfully hard stuff, this, especially when you feel alone or put upon. I am glad to hear that you are seeing someone though. That's great, really, good job. Unfortunately what I've found is sometimes you have to just try and make it from one day to the next. I'm sorry that isn't any help.

Yes what I'm doing is how I "cope" with things. I know it's not right and to tell you the truth I don't know how it started. But it's self-mutlation. It's really bad a night, during the day I'm alright for the most part. I just don't know how to stop and control everything that is going on. I just don't know what to anymore to help myself? I know that one thing that doesn't help with the depression, but that's how I get my relief from everything.

Unkown
I am really sorry you are feeling alone. But you are among friends here. We all feel that way and usually are. Those who do not have depression have no idea what it is like to suffer with it. We here know what it is all about because we feel all the emotions that go along with it: alone, hopeless, useless, guilt, etc. It is the depression talking. You see someone, that is wondeful, but do you take any medications? Do you think that this might help with the self harm? Talk to your therapist about it. I hope you find relief and strength. If you can't find it on your own, I send you some of mine. It's not much, but I will for you. HUGS to you for today.

first you are not alone, there lots of people who have been where you are. Find a support group I belong to one- Nami- National Alliance on Mental illness. We have chapters all over the country go to NAMI.ORG. They lots supports groups I belong to a vet support group, I know some other people in the other groups that are treat same way or as one person put- if they ignore my depression and all its ugly symptoms it will go away. Nami has a free class called PEER TO PEER, it teaches you how to cope with it, what might be the cause of it. They have support groups for familiies that are living with some one who has mentall ilness. A big majority of people who volunteer there or work there have a mental illness or are living with some one who has a mental illness. From my experience nami has some most compassionate, understanding, sympothatic people around. Hang in there are not a lone. Some families are afraid of what yu have because they dont understand how to help or deal with it. Nami cost nothing to join check them out. I have dealing with my depression most of my life, half that time was the 20yrs I spent in the navy, and the rest since i retired 12yrs now.. I have been thru several doctors since they helped but in the last 2 yrs nami has help me and of my fellow vets accept our illnesses and cope with the them. So hang in there there are people that care remember you not a lone I hope you can find what your looking for . May you find acceptance and peace . I think you can and will ,just it will take some time.

Along with talking here, you may also want to talk with others on our Self Harm board .

Oh hun, that's what I do *hugs*. And you're right, it is certainly not a good way to deal with things and, in my experience, sometimes it makes things worse... but it's also not something to be ashamed of... that doesn't help the depression or the SI (I prefer self injury to self mutilation). I'm sorry you feel the need to do that (I wouldn't wish it on anyone tbh).

I think the suggestion of a SH board is a good idea... I've been on one for years... pretty much ever since I 'started'. I have found it very helpful to talk to folks who have been through/ do the same things.

Please take care *hugs*

Ally

Thanks for all the responses, they all gave me encouragment. Yes I'm on meds, and it's helping somewhat, were still looking for the right balance. I'm glad I can come here for support, thanks you guys. I just so frustrated with everything and how everything is going. And I'll look into the nami.

JustAnotherGirl thanks for the words, yes your right it does make things worse in most cases it does for me. I might take your advice on the SH board I think it might help. thanks((hugs))

unkown 19 - please keep in touch and let us know how your doing. HUGS for today!!!!

I will. Today hasn't been to good. Just don't feel like doing anything today or talking to anyone. I'm try not to SH today and so far I haven't. I just don't know what to do? Last night was hell and a lot of things made me want to SH. But I kept it together, I'm just happy I made it through the night without doing anything I'll regret later. How do I make it through these days???

Unkown19
You are doing GREAT! No SH is a huge accomplishment! Koodos to you! it is tough. I understand that totally. What do you like to do as a hobby? Is there anything you can occupy your mind with when you begin thinking of harming yourself? I have no talent, but I found that if I do menial things with my hands, like a latch-hook or paint by number, then my mind and hands are occupied with something else. I know, it sounds silly, but without any real talent, I enjoys these kinds of things. It also has helped me quit smoking!!! Lets figure out something you can do. HUGS!

depression is a hard thing to deal with, i am a young adult and i hace dealt with it since i was 10. i have always felt like i had no one to really listen, like you i also told my family and after a while they started to tell me things like, haley just get over it, they didnt relize how serious it could be, the pain is very deep, and i am here if you ever would like to talk, promise.

Good for you, trying not to SH. That in and of itself is not easy. I don't know about you but sometimes I just don't even care to try. So way to go
As to how to make it through... I hope someone else can tell you because as for me, I only wish I knew. You just have to. And sometimes it will be easier than others. And if there comes a day you don't make it through without SHing that will be OK. You won't be happy with yourself, but it will still be OK. You will not be the first to have 'given in' and you won't be the last. I once went 9 months without SIing and then 'gave in'. I had an instructor at Uni (was for my Helping Interview class which is basically a 'counseling methods' class -I graduated with my BA in psych which means I know just enough to be an irritating patient/client, lol-- and after one class where cutting was thrown around like it was nothing -it was an attempt to defuse the subject as one of the girls there may have owned up to it in class... or it might have just been an example she chose to use- I had to go ask her that it not happen again because I found it very triggering... ANYway) who told me that relapse just makes recovery that much stronger.
Good luck, good job, and please take care.

Ally

That's what I'm trying to figure out myself, what can I do instead of harming myself. All my hobbies are outdoors, and usually when I harm myself it's I night. When everyone leaves me alone and I'm by myself. So there's not to much to do at night. During the day I'm good, cause then I can call up a friend and hang out. I really don't have an indoor hobby, that I could do to take my mind off things. Self harming is what I've done to get through everything. I lost some of the closet friends and I took those deaths really hard. Plus family members on top of that. Then school is extremely rough, cause I'm always being picked on. But it's not as bad as it was, it's gotten a lot better. Then it's hard to make the grades I do, cause I can't focus and everything is just twice as hard for me. Then on top of that I have family life which is good, is just that my parents just think I can get over this. And they didn't take the SI thing serious at all. My dad pretty much crushed my dreams when he found out about the SI, told me I couldn't do my dream job now because of it. Which I want to go into law enforcement, I want to be a detective for the special victims unit. So in so many ways I just don't feel like have a reason to live anymore. Dreams been crushed, can't suceed in school, and I'm a failure to my family and friends. I have tried to attempt before more than once. But now with everyone knowing and some friends helping with all this, I'm making an effort to get better.

I'm sorry, you've tried to attempt what?
As to school being hard, I totally understand that hun (I all but shut down my last year at University). But the fact that you're keeping at it even is reason to hope *hugs*. And your dad... well I don't know if what he told you is true but I very much doubt that it would make that impossible.
What time of night do you SI (or do you prefer SH? There's a slight difference and I don't know what you do... I use SI myself because I cut and sometimes burn so I am actually injuring myself *shrug*. Probably just the psych major in me coming out )? Is it close to bed time? When I did it only at night (which is actually not all that uncommon) I tended to do it before I went to bed. So maybe you could go to sleep? I've used that as an escape more than once myself. To be totally honest I'm not very good at distractions; I tend to hold off and hold off and hold off until frankly, I just get tired of trying not to and give in to the urge to SI. But here's a link to some ideas others have http://www.recoveryourlife.com/index.php?categoryid=60 That is a site I used to belong to (for four years actually, it's not bad but 'politics' and a certain member made it uncomfortable for me so I found another bored). You might check it out (beware of someone who goes by MammaMia though... she's an attention seeking fake who basically copies everyone else... and if you cross her she'll make your life a living hell).

But anyway hun, there is hope. Your dreams don't have to be over, you can manage to succeed in school... you'll get it figured out. It just takes a bit more work for folks 'like us' than it does for others *hugs*

Take care please