Depression Community

Hi A152804, I am sorry that your life has stood still even through you have been through therapy, psychiatry; You must really be feeling the effects of the lack of sleep now.
Have you an appointment to go back to your psych, can you tell him/her that this is how you are feeling just now, I would like to reassure that it is the depression that is making you feel like this and that there is help out there,
Anyway, welcome back, very glad you have decided to come back into the group, I have found it to be a very caring, supportive and members have so much knowledge and want to share
hugs
Chez x

hello, A120 --

i'm so sorry you're having such a rough time right now. relapse -- or even being stuck on a plateau -- is always a real disappointment.

i know that scary "invisible" feeling. in my first marriage (1968-1972, may it rest in peace), before i was diagnosed more than superficially and before truly effective psych meds were in widespread use (see PS1), i was desperately unhappy. the way this despair manifested itself was that every time i looked in a mirror, i saw less and less of me; i felt as if i was disappearing, bit by bit. i was literally afraid that one day i would look in the mirror and there would be no reflection at all.

we're glad you came back. everyone is here to help each other, all of us have had experience with depression in one way or another (we "get it"), and we do not judge. we care about you, and you can talk about anything you like (PS2). we are here to listen and give you emotional support, not to tell you what to do (opinions are one thing, but orders are something else entirely!).

when you are sorting thru your issues, it does not matter what "others" think; they are not you. the true struggle is inside you, and it is what you think that is important.

i send you caring thoughts and hope that you will keep writing to us for as long as you need/want to. please keep us posted on how you are doing. in fact, how was today?

-- susie margaret


PS1 -- prozac/fluoxetine did not hit the market until approx 1985, if i am remembering correctly.


PS2 -- if you think that what you say in a post could be disturbing or upsetting to an emotionally vulnerable person, put "TRIGGER" in the title or somewhere before you start your text.

take a look at my post (third in the thread), http://forums.webmd.com/3/depression-exchange/forum/8614/16#16 , for an example of "TRIGGER" in the title, and at niteflier's post (third in the thread), http://forums.webmd.com/3/depression-exchange/forum/8632/1#1 , for an example of "TRIGGER" just before the text starts. sometimes people put it in the middle of the text, after a "neutral" section but before a potentially emotionally disturbing section (i can't seem to find an example right now).

a quickie summary of when to use "TRIGGER" is in my post (fifth in the thread on the page) at http://forums.webmd.com/3/depression-exchange/forum/2/17?pg=2 .

You already know one thing and that this is depression and has nothing to do with anything you did or didn't do.
Treating depression for a patient that gets that little sleep is almost impossible. I have to take Lunesta (3mg) and use a C-PAP device for my sleep apnea. See your ENT, if you haven't already, to test for sleep apnea and get a sleep study done if you never had one. I have been using my machine for over 12 years and just had a 2nd sleep study to make sure I was getting the best support for that condition. I used to get just a few hours sleep but now I may get 6 or 6 1/2. And its the quality of the sleep that matters.