Depression Community

Hmmm. I think that's a really interesting way to look at it.. Even though I know that's just how you are feeling but I'm wondering if being tired from it is maybe a way to overcome it. If you are tired of something that would mean you don't want to do it anymore.
I don't know, just thought I'd throw that out there. Maybe it's a good thing, being bored with Depression.

Thanks for sharing, now I have something to think about.

I think "bored of being depressed" should be the quote of the day!!
How are you Jeune??

I think this sums up what depression is like sometimes for some of us. I mean when it's just the "I'm numb and I can't really feel anything" kind of depression. It does seem rather boring and flat.

I'm bored with the numbness too!

I mean really, how is it possible to maintain these feelings for so long?

I don't know if you remember the Beltway Snipers in the D.C. area, but most of the shootings in Maryland were really close to my house. Five miles or so. I walked through the parking lot where they killed one of their first victims before anyone found the poor man's body. And there was also a shooting right across the street from where I worked and I normally walked right through there every morning, it just so happened my boyfriend drove me to work that morning. Oh, and I hate driving so I take the bus to work, which meant I had to stand on a little traveled road, in an area where these guys had already killed, a sitting duck as I waited for my bus.

My point in telling all of that is I was really afraid for the first few days, then I just kind of got used to the idea someone was driving around killing random people and had done so at places I went every single day. (OK, I was also angry too).

But then ... I hardly thought about it. But that's how the normal brain works. It just can't maintain a high level of any emotion for long periods of time. Why, I am forced to wonder, is my brain, which couldn't stay fixed on the fact that I could be gunned down at any moment, able to maintain feelings of depression for ages and ages? If we agree that depressed brain is not "normal" it would make more sense if I had stayed TERRIFIED until they were caught and even continued to be terrified afterwards.

What's going on up there!?

It's just stupid, I see no reason for it. And I'm so bloody b-o-r-e-d with it.

Sorry to rant, I'm really hacked off right now.

I hear what you're saying! I have no idea how one can feel so down and out forever...ugh. You'd think the brain would have some defense mechanism against that...after all if this was about survival, depression would render us pretty defenseless...apathetic, slow to respond, indecisive, and afraid. But then I guess the adrenaline would kick in at that moment and...oh brother. Well anyway I guess we can feel something sometimes, but I would love it to be some positive feelings.

"...after all if this was about survival, depression would render us pretty defenseless..."

EXACTLY! How the heck would that work? I mean, from a group survival stand point, having a few people who were too distracted to avoid the saber toothed tigers would be handy:

"Oh no! Big cat eat Lurga!"

"Meh. She never happy anyway. And now we safe!"

But from an individual standpoint, not so much. Maybe the stress of early survival kept us distracted from feeling depressed or ... I don't know. I could see it giving rise to some creative problem solving:

"Sigh! Me too tired & sad to chase rabbit and hit with club ... Me will dig hole and wait for rabbit to fall in. Probably stupid idea anyway, but me need nap."

So maybe that's how it worked. Not that I have any plans to go live like a cavewoman.

Thanks for asking. I think it is safe to say I am a bit grumpy. How have you been?

Oh my, you had me laughing so hard with the cavewoman dialogue! I have no idea whether there were any depressed people back then or not. If there were, I would think they wouldn't survive very well. Maybe if it is a genetic predisposition, all the depressed people would mostly die out and only the vivacious, robust folks made it? Dunno.

A. Mom that would be sad. No poets, writers or most artisans. Granted there are more depressed people than the above groups could accommodate.

True D, I have heard that sometimes depressed folks can be very poetic/artistic.

Now THAT makes sense from an evolutionary standpoint.

"Look at Ugg. He make pretty marks on cave wall."
"Ooo. And his eyes, so sad."
"Me go talk to him. Cheer him up."
"No, me talk to him!"

Meanwhile, all the other cave guys are out on a prolonged mastodon hunting trip. When they return 10 months later:

"Hey. Who make all these little babies while we gone?"
"Must be Ugg."
"Nah. Him useless."
"Must be Ugg! Me hit!"
Ugg: "No! Cave spirit make babies."
"Ooo! Cave spirit!"

And so the depression gene was passed on. (And religion born.)

LOL Jeune, I love the way your mind works! Thanks for the smile...I guess depression is destined to be passed to more generations, because, gosh darn it, we keep procreating! Hah. Oh well, we all do the best we can.

Thank you so much for the laugh. I really needed that tonight.

BTW I love the idea of religion being born smack dab in the center of evolution! Living in the middle of the "Bible belt" I would love to hear some of the locals take on that one! LOL.