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downfall posted:
I just needed to post today as I am having such a terrible day today.

I just got up from laying on the couch no motivation, got up doing some laundry need to water the flowers and get a haircut which I dont feel like doing

Took my meds a little while ago hopefully they will kick in and start working


Just so many many regrets about the job decision and the job that I could be going to work everyday if I hadnt made the wrong decision, I am just so very very upset about this whole matter that i was crying last night and my husband knows that this has me so upset.

I just wish that I could let go of this past decision but I cant seem to and it just stays on my mind constantly and i dont want to end up becoming worse again

I saw the psych doctor on Monday and told her that the meds were helping but that I am still so upset about the bad job decision and it has and still is affecting me terribly.

I dont know what is going on with the Medical Records temp job as apparently the agency is waiting to hear from the client, this had better be a go as i was counting on this position to work out for the six months. I am going to call them

I do have two other temp offerings I am interviewing for both of them tomorrow one in the morning and one in the afternoon, but there again they are both just temp jobs but I need to do so just in case the other one at the hospital in Medical Records doesnt work out

I had an interview yesterday for a permanent job and I thought that It went well and I would like this job but not getting my hopes up

I also have another interview for a position on friday morning for a permanenet job and one on Monday as well

I just dont feel good about myself again as I am so worried about finding a job and if I had made the right decision I wouldnt have to be going on job interviews again and looking for a job

I am just so frustrated and unhappy with myself and my life once again
as it seems like nothing ios ever going to work out or get better for me.

Sue
4 Replies |Watch This Discussion | Report This| Share this:DOWNFALLI just needed to post today as I am having such a terrible day today.<br /> <br />I just got up from laying on the couch no motivation, got up doing some laundry need to water the flowers and get a haircut which I dont feel like doing<br /> <br />Took my meds a little while ago hopefully they will kick in and start working<br /> <br /> <br />Just so many many regrets about the job decision and the job that I could be going to work everyday if I hadnt made the wrong decision, I am just so very very upset about this whole matter that i was crying last night and my husband knows that this has me so upset.<br /> <br />I just wish that I could let go of this past decision but I cant seem to and it just stays on my mind constantly and i dont want to end up becoming worse again<br /> <br />I saw the psych doctor on Monday and told her that the meds were helping but that I am still so upset about the bad job decision and it has and still is affecting me terribly.<br /> <br />I dont know what is going on with the Medical Records temp job as apparently the agency is waiting to hear from the client, this had better be a go as i was counting on this position to work out for the six months. I am going to call them<br /> <br />I do have two other temp offerings I am interviewing for both of them tomorrow one in the morning and one in the afternoon, but there again they are both just temp jobs but I need to do so just in case the other one at the hospital in Medical Records doesnt work out <br /> <br />I had an interview yesterday for a permanent job and I thought that It went well and I would like this job but not getting my hopes up<br /> <br />I also have another interview for a position on friday morning for a permanenet job and one on Monday as well<br /> <br />I just dont feel good about myself again as I am so worried about finding a job and if I had made the right decision I wouldnt have to be going on job interviews again and looking for a job<br /> <br />I am just so frustrated and unhappy with myself and my life once again <br />as it seems like nothing ios ever going to work out or get better for me.<br /> <br />Sue
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alaska_mommy responded:
Hi Sue, I'm sorry you're feeling down again. Probably part of why you're feeling bad is that you thought you were going to be working the temp position starting yesterday. The delay could be allowing time for all your fears to come back. Just hang in there, I bet you will feel better once you're busy working. Then you can catch your breath and then make plans for the future.
Report This| Share this:DOWNFALLHi Sue, I'm sorry you're feeling down again. Probably part of why you're feeling bad is that you thought you were going to be working the temp position starting yesterday. The delay could be allowing time for all your fears to come back. Just hang in there, I bet you will feel better once you're busy working. Then you can catch your breath and then make plans for the future.
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downfall replied to alaska_mommy's response:
Dear Alaska-Mommy

Thanks for your post.

For some reason the meds were not working well today and I am at my wits end crying most of the day still so very upset about the job that i didnt take my husband is becoming very annoyed with me as he says I need to let go of the past as it has been since June but I could be working now if I hadnt made the wrong decision.


I am also upset as no word on the temp job that I am suppose to be starting the agency stating that the Client's HR is dragging their feet, now I am beginning to wonder if this temp job is about to fall through as the agency was suppose to call me back later this afternoon which they did not do.

So now I am forced to go on two interviews tomorrow for other temp jobs throgh other agencies both across town and both alot farther than the one that I thought I would be working, but I have to go just in case the other one doesnt work out.

Why is nothing in my life working out or going right, I am just so frustrated and dont want to regress back with my mental state as I had finally been starting to feel better.

I am beginning to hate my life and myself again.

I wish I knew what I did in my life that is so terrible that God feels the need to keep punishing me as I am already punishing myself and miserable enough as it is.
Report This| Share this:DOWNFALLDear Alaska-Mommy<br /> <br />Thanks for your post.<br /> <br />For some reason the meds were not working well today and I am at my wits end crying most of the day still so very upset about the job that i didnt take my husband is becoming very annoyed with me as he says I need to let go of the past as it has been since June but I could be working now if I hadnt made the wrong decision.<br /> <br /> <br />I am also upset as no word on the temp job that I am suppose to be starting the agency stating that the Client's HR is dragging their feet, now I am beginning to wonder if this temp job is about to fall through as the agency was suppose to call me back later this afternoon which they did not do.<br /> <br />So now I am forced to go on two interviews tomorrow for other temp jobs throgh other agencies both across town and both alot farther than the one that I thought I would be working, but I have to go just in case the other one doesnt work out.<br /> <br />Why is nothing in my life working out or going right, I am just so frustrated and dont want to regress back with my mental state as I had finally been starting to feel better. <br /> <br />I am beginning to hate my life and myself again. <br /> <br />I wish I knew what I did in my life that is so terrible that God feels the need to keep punishing me as I am already punishing myself and miserable enough as it is.
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alaska_mommy replied to downfall's response:
Sue, remember the antidepressant you're taking has not had long enough to start giving you relief. Now if the anti-anxiety med is seeming like it's not working anymore, I would make an appointment with your doctor right away and let them know that it's not working. They may be able to up the dosage or switch you to something else that will help you. I hate to see you like this all over again, you were doing really well for awhile there.
I don't think God is punishing you---but I know the feeling. I have felt that way myself before and wondered what I did to deserve the life circumstances I've had. I hope you can start to feel more hopeful again. When do you see your therapist again?
Report This| Share this:DOWNFALLSue, remember the antidepressant you're taking has not had long enough to start giving you relief. Now if the anti-anxiety med is seeming like it's not working anymore, I would make an appointment with your doctor right away and let them know that it's not working. They may be able to up the dosage or switch you to something else that will help you. I hate to see you like this all over again, you were doing really well for awhile there. <br />I don't think God is punishing you---but I know the feeling. I have felt that way myself before and wondered what I did to deserve the life circumstances I've had. I hope you can start to feel more hopeful again. When do you see your therapist again?
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Elizabeth_WebMD_Staff replied to downfall's response:
Hi Sue -

Hope you got a good night's sleep. There will be good days and not so good days. You will have to work really hard to plow through the bad ones.

I sure hope today is a better one!

Elizabeth
Report This| Share this:DOWNFALLHi Sue - <br /><br />Hope you got a good night's sleep. There will be good days and not so good days. You will have to work really hard to plow through the bad ones.<br /><br />I sure hope today is a better one!<br /><br />Elizabeth
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