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Another not so great day. i went on my two interviews today for the temp jobs and am waiting to hear the outcome

I dont know what I am going to do if I dont get one of these positions as i really need to work for both my snaity and the money

The medical records temp position that that the agency was in a big hurry to have someone start , well I spoke with my contact at the agency and she seemed annoyed that I was following up but i really want to know if this is going to actually happen as it would be closer to home and more money than the other two but only for 6mths time

The other of the two temp jobs would also be for 6 mths and they need 4 people, a little farther away but if they want me then I am going to go and not wait for the medical recrds temp job as by the end of today I did not hear anything at all.

I have an interview for a perm job tomorrow and also on Monday as well

Received a rejection today from a position that i had interviewed for that I was sort of hoping to get and of course was disappointed.

Now unemployment is once again on my case about something that I thought was cleared up and if there is a problem they may ask for money back or stop my payments altogether and I dont ahve many more left as this point which is another concern of mine

My husband need a tooth pulled (he has dental insurance but will have to pay for some of it) and will also have the bills from where I went to the ER hopefully I will get some sort of financial assistance from the hospital since I dont have insurance.

Too many worries about finances.

I am so upset today over the job issue and the finances that I have been crying on and off for most of the evening and i dont want to end up back in the state that I had been previously. .

I feel like I am regressing again and just want to go lay on the couch for the evening as I am getting to the point where I just dont vare anymore about anything at allNothing seems to be working at all in my life everything is going wrong and I just cant deal with all of these isssues at all anymore, if only I had chosen the right job none of this would have happened

I just feel like God hates me and is punishing me

I am begining to hate myself and my life so uch once again.

Sue