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Chez1
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Demons2011 posted:
Seen you have been your usual helpful, caring self. But, how are you? Doing OK? I know you have put a lot of effort, time and changes in place over the last couple of months. Just want to make sure you are OK!
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niteflier responded:
I agree D, as always she has been helpful, caring and I would like to know as well - how you are doing Chez1 .

(((((snoopy dance)))))
Niteflier

Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love

 
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chez1 replied to niteflier's response:
Hi D and NF
Thank you for asking after me, I am doing ok.
Still have highs and lows, well more lows than highs but sure that is fine.
I have a lot going on just now at home and working hard at keeping on top of it.
I reckon that as I am still here something that I am doing must be working!!
D - well done on going back to the CBT, I am very proud of you
NF - good to see you managing more posts, also very proud of you
Both of you take care and hugs coming your way
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People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily....... Zig Ziglar
 
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niteflier replied to chez1's response:
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Thank you for checking in Chez and wish you had more highs than lows. i am happy that you are staying on top of it and your still here.
I had a conversation with someone I know about medication. after our conversation i gave their point of view some thought and realize i did not do what my father would have wanted - i think he would have rather felt the pain to know he was alive. he was a marine after all. i gave him the pain medication which terminated his life earlier than the cancer would have - and after our conversation i also realized i did it so i would not have to watch him suffer. I made a huge error in judgement and will have to live with it and take it as one of life's cruel lessons. I have text and apologized to his wife, but have not spoke to her yet. I believe knowing this is better in that i am not constantly second guessing what i did. i know what i did was not the right thing, but i am ok with that. not great, but ok. mistakes in life are made and the best thing is to learn from them and make every attempt to move forward, not to make the same mistake twice....its all we have.
strange how a conversation can put things into perspective (even if the outcome is not what you were searching for).

You all are great and want to say thank you again
Take care, hang in there and sending lots of love and hugs to you all.
Niteflier

Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love

 
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chez1 replied to niteflier's response:
hi nf, I am so sorry I didn't see this until now.
I am going to second guess you and say you are not feeling "ok with that", I am also going to second guess that with some new thought you are maybe back in a quandary.
nf, I understand your need to feel clarity and justify your actions/ or not as you are saying, but please remember the reasons that you gave the medication. I appreciate what you say about your dad being a marine and being brave and take on pain to feel alive, but I bet you knew him slightly better and knew that he would not want to be dependent on others for personal care, for toileting, staying clean etc.

NF you did not make a selfish decision, you made a caring, loving decision to save your dad.
When I read this post, I feel deep pain and anguish, I so wish I could take that away from you, as you know I cant do that but I can offer my love, care, hugs and my hand for you to hold on to.
Niteflier, please let me know you are ok and sorry if I have misinterpreted your comment
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People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily....... Zig Ziglar
 
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niteflier replied to chez1's response:
Hey Chez, don't mean to worry you, really I am ok - as warped as it may sound......i don't really understand it - just know I am ok with it. I do understand what you are saying and thank you for all the love, care, hugs and the numerous times you have given me your hand. You have not misinterpreted anything, it is warped i know, but for now i seem to be ok with it.

(((((hugs))))) right back at cha
Niteflier

Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love

 
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chez1 replied to niteflier's response:
hi niteflier
sure what we do here without a little bit of warped thinking!!
Glad you really are ok with it, and just to note if you become not ok with it, we are here for you!!
Thanks for the hugs, I will let them wrap around me to sleep.
Tiredness is my biggest problem at the moment, I am managing to get to sleep I just wake every half hour of the night and wake more tired than going to bed.
But I am not going to complain, I am still here and I hope to be for a while yet!
Please take care and I hope to catch up soon
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People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily....... Zig Ziglar
 
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niteflier replied to chez1's response:
Thank you Chez, I will let you know. right now it seems everything is calm....a strange calm i have not had in a long time. I agree warped thinking is what we do - i mean that in the best way. I hate you cant sleep. could you have sleep apnea? I use to have that problem..... i can sleep for HOURS on the seroquel.....unfortunately it is hard to wake up -- i don't take it all the time.
I wish there were something I could do for you, help you. The calmness i have is really wierd, but welcomed.......
I hope you take care and have a good day today (i see it is about 4am your time). Sending lots of love, hugs, and i've been kind of selfish and have not yet let go of your hand. Thank you again.
Talk to you tomorrow/today......time change is so confusing
Remember this? Snoopy Dance
Niteflier

Perhaps the Animal Spirit is so great that one day it may inspire compassion in the human heart. Nan Sea Love



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