Am I Depressed?
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An_249865 posted:
First I'd like to say that I've been depressed/bad mode ever since I can remember, I'm in my mid teens. I started taking antidepressants a year ago. Maybe their is some slight improvement... I just don't know.

Its not that I feel depressed... just more anxiety, anger, and overall confused. Some times I feel great... other times I feel so depressed, that I just don't want to be alive. But never have I though about suicide... their so much to live for... but its just hard to explain.

Often when I feel -down- I question what I live for. I don't know their is to live for... I want to jump of a building... don't get me wrong... not to kill myself.... just for the excitment and the rush. I don't know why I feel this way.... I just want something to live for... yes their so much... but I just don't feel like myself... or maybe its that I don't know myself.

I feel like its a roller-coaster ride that I'm riding... with my ups and downs. One minute I'm happy, then I'm crying, then I'm very angry, and then I'm of doing something dangerous. Or something like this.

I don't know if I'm bipolar , depressed, or just plain stupid....
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