Skip to content
My WebMD Sign In, Sign Up

Announcements

Please take some time to click through these links to find out more about our community.

What is a Trigger and When to Trigger a Post
How and Why to Report a Post
Visit our Crisis Assistance Link for resources. For immediate help, call 911 or get to the ER.


Just Existing
avatar
AvaDAngelo posted:
I am tired of living but too much of a sissy to end it all, so I am just existing. I have given up on everything that life is suppose to be about. I worked so hard in life to be something but even that is crap. My career is falling apart, my marriage is falling apart, and the worst thing is, I don't care anymore. I have zero dreams or hopes about life getting better, this is as good as it is going to get. I have accepted the fact that at this point in my life, I am just here to pay the bills so my kids have a roof over their heads and food in their guts, barely. Everything else is just a joke. I am too old to start dreaming of a better life, or even try to change it at this point. I'm simply too tired. I've tried meds, don't work. I don't have money for counseling and I know this is just something I have to live with. My mother was BiPolar and killed herself when I was 9. I promised I would never do that to my kids. I am just having a hard time finding a way to even get out of bed anymore. I need a way to fake it for everyone else so at least my pretend life can go on as normal. I have no one to talk to. When I talk to my husband, it just turns into an argument about me "being selfish" and making excuses for not wanting to have sex. I have no friends I can confide in because I simply do not let myself get close to anyone. I just don't know how to cope anymore. Happiness is just not in the cards for me in life. As hard as I try, I will always be just existing.
Reply
 
avatar
An_250930 responded:
I understand. My husband left me after 19 years of marriage because of my depression. You are a very strong person and I pray that you will know there is always hope. I am glad you had the courage to post this and reach out. I have so often wanted to have a support group of like minded people who can enlighten each other on ways to turn this illness around and find peace..


Featuring Experts

Thomas L. Schwartz, MD, received his medical degree from and completed his residency in adult psychiatry at the State University of New York (SUNY) Up...More

Helpful Tips

Bringing Peace Back to the Holiday Season Through Mindfulness
http://ezinearticles.com/?Bringing-Peace-Back-to-the-Holiday-Season-Through-Mindfulness&id=8165694 More
Was this Helpful?
0 of 0 found this helpful

Related News

There was an error with this newsfeed

Related Drug Reviews

  • Drug Name User Reviews

Report Problems With Your Medications to the FDA

FDAYou are encouraged to report negative side effects of prescription drugs to the FDA. Visit the FDA MedWatch website or call 1-800-FDA-1088.