First of all, twotontess, you might want to change your name to something positive....Lightweightone...
Try to look at your diabetes as a way of life, not a diet. We're not dieting. We're trying to eat more healthy. I used to feel exactly like you do. I just couldn't comprehend giving up all the things I loved to eat. That was "before" diabetes. Now, I just make a mindset that I don't want to have damage to my body, blindness, heart problems, bladder, liver, or kidney difficulties, etc.
Since this is so hard for you right now, start with little steps.
Your goal is to keep your carb levels under 45 for each meal.
Do little meals and space them out. Make smaller portions.
If you like to snack(I do too), try to look for healthier snacks, like almonds and a small apple, No sugar added Dreyer's ice cream,(1/2 a cup), sugarless pudding cups, *one only) five strawberries cut up with Lite Cool Whip, a piece of cheese and a whole grain cracker.
Don't by anything that you CRAVE, and you know you will overeat too many of them, like whole grain crackers. You could get the 100 calories small individual bags of popcorn.
You can chew on sugarless gum(which does have carbs, too).
Diet sodas make me want to eat more, so try to stay away from them and concentrate on water.
Like the last poster said, maybe do your exercise after dinner, taking the dog for a walk, or planning to walk with a friend. It will get you out of the house away from food.
I really didn't want to exercise, as I always felt too tired. What I found is that if I did my exercise first thing in the morning, it made me feel good all day long. It energizes my mood and body.
If you are a people person, try to do exercises with other people. I go with three other people to swim class. If I didn't know I was meeting them, I probably would stay home. I did go by myself 25 minutes away to the Zumba class today, though. I'm really motivated to take that class.
Take up knitting or crocheting while watching t.v. or even make jewelry. Then you won't be eating..
Start tomorrow with a new attitude, and don't get mad at yourself if you don't follow through. You can do it. Don't deprive yourself. Make sure you have a special snack for the afternoon. It's NOT a diet. It's just a new way of living. Live it to the fullest.