Hi all,
I guess it has been nine months since I have commented on anything on here, I've been busy with kids and work and life in general. I initially stopped as a "vacation" from thinking about dieting and losing weight for myself because it was becoming overwhelming, but I have been lurking.
I was stuck at that 193-194 lb mark for much of that time off, so right before Thanksgiving I gave up and decided that I would eat whatever I felt like whenever I felt like it over the holidays, and I was sure that I was going to gain at least 10 lbs then I would get back to watching what I eat when I start back at work. I was so wrong about the gaining 10 lbs. Instead I lost 5lbs and now my work clothes definitely don't fit. They were loose before the holidays but now they are falling off. What I did find through this experience though is a lot of the healthy changes I made for myself stuck even if I wasn't consciously working towards them, which gives me hope for maintenance later. I let myself eat however much of whatever, but after a year of watching how much I was eating, I couldn't eat a whole lot of anything. I also was not interested in high calorie high sugar high sodium foods. Ok, there were some snicker doodles, brownies, chocolate cake, and pepperoni, but not very often. I have been wondering if I was eating too little and that is why I was maintaining instead of losing. I will say one thing though; since I started work again a couple weeks ago I have been craving sugar much more than usual, and fighting that with lots of extra water. Every time I want sugar I just have a big cup of cold water to fill my stomach and it staves it off for a while.
Anyway, the kids are doing great; the four year old is now in an eating cycle. She is even eating meat, which she has never been a big fan of, mostly because we explained that since she is in a ballet class now she needs to make sure she is taking care of her muscles and bones by giving them the nutrition that they need. I also put my soon to be 8 year old son in a jazz dance class. His dad finally gave up on pushing him into sports when he coached his flag football team this fall and my son was the only one not really interested in playing. My husband would be on the field coaching the kids and really getting into the game, our son would be on the sideline chasing crickets and pretending he was a dinosaur. To give my husband credit, it was our son's idea to be in flag football and my husband was approached by the head of the program to be a coach when they split up from the instructional practices to teams. After the month of twice a week football games, my husband threw his hands up and said "Put him in whatever you want, he's not interested in focusing on sports right now." My son's class has two other boys and like 6 girls ("two girls for every boy") and I am hoping with his always wanting to do anything to impress girls that positive peer pressure will set in on him focusing on his body use in space. He's a little spazy (not in a medical way, in a I don't want to sit still so I jump around without thinking first) so it is an issue. My three year old now feels left out because her birthday is after the deadline so she can't join a dance class till the fall at the studio but the local high school dance squad is holding a clinic next month that we are going to sign her up for. It's a month long and ends with a performance at a high school basketball game. She is really super shy so she may not actually perform but I will let her decide then. I just want them all to have a focus for their extra energy because I can't take my house being torn apart and don't want them sitting around like zombies.
My husband graduated from college, finally, and has an audition with the Detroit Symphony Orchestra next month. We are both so excited even though he probably won't get it, the audition experience is what he needs to get out there. Sorry for the novel.
apierich- SW 249 GW 145 CW 188