Hey mitmit,
If I'm reading that correctly, you have already lost 110 lbs and have maintained that loss. So, well, that in and of itself is something to celebrate.
You say that you "keep trying" to lose weight. Honey, that's the best thing for you and all of us to do.
Keep Trying.
You are now looking at it from the standpoint of your children deserving a mom that can run and play with them. I would love for you to start looking at it like YOU deserve to get healthier and more active, for YOU. This is the one thing, probably the ONLY time, that you can be completely in control and self centered, even a little greedy. Because you deserve it and are worth every penny and effort that it may take to get to the point where you are healthier and happier with yourself.
As most of us here, you are probably the main "shopper" for the family's groceries. You are in control of what is purchased and brought into the house and therefore, eaten.
Pick a time when you can shop WITHOUT the kids and the hubby. This is a time for you to concentrate on what goes into the cart without all the "I wants" and "gimmes" from others. It's hard enough to make good, healthy decisions without having to deal with kids wanting the candy or chips or pop and hubbies wanting salami and crackers.
Focus on purchasing the bulk of your goods from the OUTSIDE ring of the grocery section. Fresh fruits, veggies, whole grain (and preferably lower fat and calorie) bread choices, fresh "trimmed" meats and some lower fat hamburger, I use 1 lb ground turkey to 1/2 lb hamburger mixed and noone in my family knows the difference(try to stay away from processed meats like bacon, hot dogs and packaged lunch meats), fresh low fat/fat free dairy products and whole eggs.
Think and research what types of foods and choices that you have that are healthier, more nutritious options in everything that comes into the house.
Pick healthy snacks like baby carrots or celery with peanut butter , air popped pop corn, warmed pita triangles with hummus, etc.
Use a food and fitness planner to log ALL of your food intake to see where you can and need to change your daily calories.
Drink LOTS of water
and blog, because coming here for support can definitely make the difference at the end of the day.
kim
Kim SW 252 CW 180.3 GW 135
If hunger is not the problem, then eating is not the solution.---author anonymous
If you are going through Hell,keep going.-- Winston Churchill