Eating Disorders Community

I know I'm going to sound like a broken record but... (aside from here at WebMD)... therapy therapy therapy. You need support and someone to talk to just to help you get clear on all that you're feeling.

Re the M&Ms.... one way I control my own eating is to not have things in my home which I can't resist and aren't healthy. Sometimes I need to head things off at the pass at the grocery store.

But I'm more concerned about your obsessing about it all. You are not a bad person because you're human. (((hugs)))

The M&M were bought for Christmas, my sister asked me to pick up a tray of Chocolates at this shop near me to bring with me to her house on Christmas, I completely forgot. So last minute I picked up one of those big bags of M&M with peanuts because I knew she loved them. I even got decorative holidays bowls to put them in. Well, when I was leaving she told me take what was left home with me, she had too much in her house. Well, I did. I cant bring myself to throw them out, so I have been eating them. I dont normal have stuff like this in the house and if I do, I have better control over myself. I still have my daughters Halloween candy that I havent touched.

You dont sound like a broken record, your are right, therapy. I did try a new therapist but feel like the words were just coming out with no feelings behind them. So I went back to my old therapist just before the holidays. She told me, she has done all she can do for me, her job is done. I feel like I have lost all hope. Ive push so many people away, just when I need them to hold on to me the most.

I do know, deep down I should go back to therapy, I really need help with sorting all these feelings out, especially all that has come up since my therapist told me she was done with me. I dont have the strength anymore. I will get through this alone and tomorrow will be another day to possibly try.

Thank you for all your help.

I hope you'll consider that new therapist if you liked her well enough. The feelings will come once you're in there regularly and talking. And even just talking about those feelings may end up helping you.

You're never alone, not entirely, not when you're posting on these boards. (((hugs)))

I understand about the M&Ms.

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I havent been on this board much, the other board you see me on has been too hard for me to read, so to be safe been staying away. I took your advice, went to see my old therapist. Even though I have issues with her, it was a very good session for me. I have no other appointment with her but that's ok too.

Thank you, these boards dont make me feel alone as much.

The M&M's are gone. Thank God, now if we can get the Halloween candy finished I will be very happy. There will be no buying Valentines Day candy.

LOL... Buy yourself some flowers instead for Valentine's.

Glad you had a good session. And I'm glad you're taking steps to keep yourself safe.