Eating Disorders Community

I am brand new to this board. I am 44 years old and have been struggling with complusive overeating and binging for 31 years. My weight has varied between 115 - 250 pounds during this time. (I am 5ft 6in.) I have lost between 80-100 pounds, 7 times in the past 2 decades. Each time, I had to fight constant cravings and the dread of somehow knowing it would all return. It has.

I have always been positive and successful in other areas of my life, with the exception of romantic relationships. (Could never make a romance work for longer than 6 months.) However, it now seems as though that resolve to keep my "out of control eating" from wrecking my life has been worn down. I feel like my entire life is falling apart. To make matters worse, to accept a new job - I moved "to the middle of nowhere" about 2 years ago. My binge eating had a field day.

There is a medical clinic but when I asked them about treatment for a potential eating disorder, they looked at me as though they didn't even know what that meant.

I feel as though I am up a creek & only sinking deeper. I have thought about an inpatient program. (This would provide the access, which I do not have on a day-to-day basis becaise fo the remote area I live.) I feel as though I am that desperate. The one that seems to want to work with me is Rader. However, I am trying to get some independent reviews & can only seem to find one & it was bad. The person shared that their medical director had her md license revoked for over-medicating. I googled it & turns out is is true. That's scarey - but, it was since re-instated.

My request ot you is: (1) Does anyone know of a good inpatient treatment facility for binge & compulsive eating? (2) Has anyone here been to Rader & how was it? (3) Any advice you'd like to share.

Thank you.