Fibro Friends

& Feeling sorry for myself. This is starting to become the norm for me, unfortunately. I'm a caregiver by nature, oldest sibling & always try to be a good friend &|or mate. Always wanna lend a helping ear or hand if I can but now in my 24th yr of life, I feel helpless. It started in my pre-teens when I was experiencing severe back pains that I was told was normal, A few yrs later in my early h.s years, I was diagnosed w| scoliosis & a herniated disc which was all accompanied by insomnia. As a h.s athlete & just becoming comfortable in owning who I am & coming out as a lesbian at a very young age it was difficult to accept. Furthermore, it made me wonder if I was being punished for the way I was born. After a rough patch & rebelling I was kicked off my step-dads health insurance once I turned 18. I kinda went off on my own, trying to re-build my pieces to life but soon after started really getting randomly ill.Severely ill & no DR's seemed to have a clue what was wrong. Fast forward a few yrs later. I'd been doing overnight stocking to make ends meat for over half a yr before my injuries started to worsen. By the beginning of this yr getting up out of my bed every night was becoming a challenge, I was noticing how much my body hurt, how my moods were so off, not to mention I've lost about 60 lbs in the past 2 yrs or so. Finally, my neurosurgeon suggested I see a rheumatologist because he felt my back wasnt the only issue & the action of surgery should only be taken once I figure out what else is wrong w| me. He was the first DR. I've ever trusted at that moment. I had already done much research so after being confirmed w| fibromyalgia, I am now at home for about the third month w| absolutely no income, very little support or what even seems to be understanding from family & friends. I hate to feel like I'm complaining so when asked how I feel I usually say okay but only because when I say otherwise I always get told "you look great" or "its all in your head, do this, etc.." Today, I woke up feeling every symptom you can imagine & as I read these boards w| support, I didnt feel so alone. I have so many years ahead of me, I just want to be somewhat comfortable & happy. This cant be life.