IT SEEMS EVERYTHING IS RUNNING RAMPID IN MY BODY SUDDENLY... sorry for yelling I just had to let it out... I am so frustrated... Went to a ortho surgeon today and didn't even see him... seen his flunky... she told me there are three more problems in my body and no help... suffer i said... she said yeh.. sorry hun... i asked if i could leave now and left...
because of my ms spasmodic legs and my rsd flaring in one and my fm flair and my diabetes... even the shots were a no no... and hey the good old blood pressure was low not high... guess it followed my mood... I knew what they would say I just thought they could drain the water at least... Fix the torn tendon at least... I knew they couldn't do anything about the meniscus degeneration which isn't too unseavere anymore... can't spell that one good enough to bwe corrected lol... and don't forget those mighty huge unbelievable arthritus spurs... Means a whole knee replacement and due to all the above no go...
Sorry I am depressed and angry... that makes 24 things wrong with me... and now I feel like I am just rotting away... and I am really tired of it all... the pain never goes away and the knee hasn't been helped with morphine and oxycontin pure... helps other things but not all the pain... just isn't right is it...
Also... She said in their opinion they won't advice the shots... they say that because of the flares and complications that can happen they say a definite no... I could infect worse then it would be worth it... or the chance of the infection is greater then the chance of it helping... So do I tell my Pain Management Dr who is already making plans and I think has the OK from my insurance... Or do I just let it ride till he might get the report... I have my doubts... they said they only send out reports if the patient sees the dr... the dr that sent me already knows they aren't helping me...
I still don't think I am as bad as some... I was dieing a few times in my past... cancer 7 times survivor... I can survive this too right... just some days like today I wonder why...
I didn't suffer this much with my cancer...
When you need a friend, reach out to a stranger and you will have one. If you need help, help someone else. if you need to cry, find someone already crying and celebrate life.
Love Jan