Thank you Linsuemo for replying. If that wasn't bad enough! My employer asked me this past Friday what my plans were. My plan, I guess keep working-Right?
Well, she explained to me that due to my excessive absences, due to my illness, maybe I should concentrate more on my health. I explained to her that I have good days but more bad days. She said she fully understands (due to the fact that her sister has Lupus) but at the end this is a "business" and they (the company) needs me here.
So, in other words, I need to hit the road!
I am a receptionist at a police dept. here on our reservation. It can get busy but the majority of the time it is slow. Yes, I am the first person that the community see's-cool, but it's not like I am the only person up front. I work with and in the records dept. and she can easily be at the window in like a few seconds. But I do see her point of view.
I did look into short-term disability, but she (my supervisor) asked if I would come back from that short-term leave at 100% effective and ready to work. Soory chica, Fibromyalgia is CHRONIC, I explained to her. I am no longer 100%. Don't get me wrong, I can get my butt to work on time but when I'm in pain, I'M IN PAIN!! It's hard to get people to understant our pain. So I guess I'm gonna stay here as long as I can. I have the time for the leave it's just that my supervisor needs me here. Understandable.
I've been putting in for different jobs, I'm just waiting to here back for an interview.
So I'm hoping I get this one job that's a Supervisor position. I know, I'm pressing my luck, but I have to try. I can't imagine NOT WORKING! This job does a lot of walking. Whew, that just sounds exhausting. LOL!
The supervisor's don't work the graveyard shift but they may have to work till one in the morning. Great cuz that's when I usually start winding down!
I just can't be let go from a job-AGAIN! My last job let me go due to my illness. BUT since I work on a reservation, we are considered a "sovereign nation" so the outside worlds' rules don't apply to us on the rez. We have our own rules. Sometimes I think the rules are made up as we go along. That's just me....

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What should I do? Stay till I have to be thrown out or bow out with what dignity I have left?
I told my supervisor I do plan on being here, but my body says something else.
Lemme know what you think.. -Mitz in Idaho-