I
AM OK
I was driving to work this morning and this phrase kept running through my mind. Although newly diagnosed I have been sick for years - I guess pretty much was just plugging along until 1. someone believed me 2. I had enough sore points to diagnose the FM.
Many years ago I was teachning a Franklin Covey based time management class to my managers and in a video people said many inspiring things but the one that has always stuck was "I have cancer but cancer does not have me". At this point I was already a cancer survivor so I have hung onto this - I think it fits perfect with FM or anything else. We start to identify ourselves so much as the disease or syndrome we have.
So this phrase kept going this morning
I am tired but I
AM OK
I have pain but I
AM OK
My toilet needs clean but I
AM OK
I have past due bills but I
AM OK
I had cancer but I
AM OK
I had a GI bleed but I
AM OK
I had a hemorrhage & emergency surgery but I
AM OK
I survived crazy men but I
AM OK
I.....I
AM OK
My body may be going through a lot of stuff - I see it as sort of a rollercoaster - I have to just hang on and not fight the symptoms (but fight for relief of the syndrome). At the center of my soul no matter what my body is going through I
AM OK.
I have felt broken for so many years - honestly since I was 19 and raped but on the way to work this morning that phrase kept going through my mind - and I felt it through my whole body eventhough I hurt and things are all wacked out - I really am OK.
The sticky notes are working
I have sticking notes on my bedroom door and my mirror with affirmations on them - they always work so well. They just start to blend into the background but the mind still sees them and takes them as truth.
Be Well,
Missie