Bacteria Free... Colitis Free... I knew when he came in the door and he had that silly grin on his face... lol... We both thanked the Lord right there... and I have spent the day spreading the good word... I have been saying for days that I feel like a new woman and he said I am one... It was a long haul and I couldn't have done it with out the best on my side and a lot of prayer... Thank you all again for thinking of me and being there for me even when I couldn't be says..
I am in so much pain words fail ake opiates and get me... I know in my heart it is better to hurt and be able to walk then not have feeling in my legs and not walk... I do know it also hurts so bad I am brought to tears... but I thank God for the pain... I am not ready to live life in a wheelchair...
lot of people don't understand how I am right now and how I feel... I know that you do... You know it is important to grasp every moment of happiness and good in our lives for things don't stay the same minute to minute.... For me I take opiates and get a fair amount of relief... and it lasts over 4 hours... I take 1 pain killer 3 times a day like clock work... and one for breakthru pain... 4 times a day... I am on a anti inflamatory and a muscle relaxer both atleast 3 times a day...
I feel like I am a blessed one... I guess I can say tho I am blessed tho... I have several problems and if the painkillers aren't helping a FM flalir it is helping the 8 bulging discs in my back... the nerve damage in my whole body... the MS... and plenty more...
It all makes life a chore... but also it is a challenging worth fighting for... I feel the pain and suffering is my way of finding my true self... and no one can stop me...
I have reconnected with myself... I did lose myself in the past 4 months being so ill,.. now I have a chance to gen I can return and do good for me and then return to do good for you...
I guess I am quite a rambler tonight... most everyone will bypass this message anyway... after all it is the weekend and it is usually slow on the weekend...
thanks again... gentle and soft hugs to you all... you are all dear to me... take care... Love... Jan/Dakota