Kita11 we have all been there. Just a few months ago I was on here saying I felt like just giving up. You can read my discussion thread and know my mood swings were crazy. At one point I thought I was. As easy as it is for someone to say just think of something happy, we all know living with FM is not that simply. Between pain, meds, lack of sleep, and the reality that some still don't understand what we go through, the ups and downs seem unbearable. It took me a hard look at what I was living with to make a change. I was even asked to go see a therapist, which I am. Unfortunately it took something much greater to get me so to speak up and moving to get better. Almost taking my life because I didn't want to live like this anymore. Before we go further, it wasn't an intentional. I was so fed up with pain and crying I kept taking the pain meds until my pain stopped, fiber fog. I didn't know what I was doing at the time, don't really remember how much I took. My sister happened to stop by and that was my miracle. After a long stent with doctors and treatment for my little mishap my sister was the one that reminded me of how much I would be missed if I decided to let this rule my life and not take control. I have 12 neices and nephews, 8 god children whom I love so much but seemed to have forgotten about in my pain. Ask questions, research, and don't be afraid. We are here. Ok now for what I do when I feel my moods getting out of control. I live for my family, teaching the kiddos to be the best they can and not let pressure from others to take away from their dreams. On my phone I have an app that has saying from all of my family with words of encouragement. When I am getting sad or really hurting, I play it and end up crying from joy. It lifts my spirits and reminds me that even though I am living with FM, it doesn't change the person I am or that there are so many people that love me regardless. Just smiling when your in a bad mood starts the change into a good one.
Let me know if you need to be lifted, my nephew's saying is cute and I will send it to you.
Never me afraid to reach out to us.
Liz