When I sang Happy Happy Birthday Baby to my first grandchild who turned 11 today I felt tears welt in my eyes... Thru all my morning pain the joy of having her here with me made life worth everything again...
It is party time... Grandmother hurts and keeps apologizing and Janet is just like her mother... patiently waiting for the smallest of parties... Tomorrow... I have two parties at the same time and no choice but to be there and at my "best"... the best that this Jan can be anyway... I would laugh at that... lol... but I'm not laughing... I didn't laugh back then either... when my daughter was so understanding.
It is nice to have a couple of friends to fall back on... Now... mine are my SR and JR boys... one is the father and one is the son... and I don't know what I would do without them... I can only imagine trying to get by and my imagination doesn't work that good lol...
When the kids were small I didn't have a lot of people back then to fall back on... but I did always have at least one person... and that means the world to me... So when I find myself in the company of a pair... I am ever so happy...
Today is a sad day and a happy day... and A very proud and loving day... So with all my mixed emotion of past memories... memories in the making and memories to dream of in the future... It is a peaceful yet tremulous day...
I have 4 kids waiting for cupcakes... and it is time to get my feet up again... So I will share the cupcakes if I have to lol... and then maybe rest... maybe let my SR and JR help me out lol... I have been up too long...
Will write more later... take care... soft and gentle hugs...
Love... Jan/Dakota