Welcome Home Hun... You are in a great place to be... I hope you find it to be as wonderful as I find it to be...
Hun... there is nothing to be ashamed about.. You are ill... You didn't do anything to ask for this... You have gone thru some rough times...
It is sometimes hard to explain to others what I feel... I have multiple illnesses and disabilities... Sometimes i feel like I shoudn't explain what I am going thru... I don't want others to think I am just worse off then them and I need their pity...
Some of my problems is my facial pain, neck pain, throat pain and chest pain... Sometimes it feels as if I am having a heart attack... Or I can't breathe... And I get a lot of migraines during those times...
I sleep almost sitting up with 9 pillows surrounding me... When I fall off them I hurt so bad I cry.. And these days it happens more often then not that my pain brings me to tears...
Sometimes this is so hard to deal with and I am very grateful I have here to come to... The people here are very supportive... Even if I am not plagued badly with my FM and need to gripe about my other illnesses and syndromes...
People can tell when I am having a bad day... I get red in the face, neck, shoulders, and even my back...
Don't feel ashamed... the one thing that keeps me going even on my worst of times is I try my hardest to accept me and the way things are... It is one of those moment by moment things now... It has been for a long time... And it hasn't been the easiest thing to do for about a week now... But I still say I can keep going if I can find something inside me loveable... lol... Today that thing is I am trying to reach out for help and I am trying to reach out to help others...
I hope you will find the help you need today... hang in there and remember accept yourself and what is happening and it will be easier to deal with...
One thing that might help when you rest is try to do what I do... I try to use meditation and imagery and self hypnosis to keep me as relaxed as possible.. It helps when I can achieve it lol...
Take care my new friend... and return soon...
Love... Jan/Dakota