I thank you all so much for your posts and prayers... Once again Miracles DO Happen!!! I woke every 45 to 60 minutes all night long... Had to give up the ghost at 5:30 am to get my time to myself and then prepare me for my day with my first dose of pain meds... About the time I had to wake my son at 6:30.. I thought to myself... mmm... I haven't cried yet lol... the pain level had gone down at least a level... And I wasn't anxious... instead I was enjoying my coffee and the quiet so much I didn't want to wake anyone lol...
I went to my psychiatrist and I had gotten the time wrong... the appointment was at 10:15 not 10:30... if you are 5 minutes late they are to reschedule you... But they gave me the choice to hang out for an hour and be worked in hopefully... no guarantee... or come back at 1:45 which I couldn't do... so I waited and she seen me within half an hour... thank God...
She took me off my trazadone for the highest dose wasn't working anymore... put me on doxepin a sleeping aid and anti-depressant... She increased my tegretal and now I take it in the morning and at night as my neurologist suggested... and she increased my zoloft... I told her I feel like a lab rat lol... But she usually has me leaving feeling hopeful... And I do...
The neurologist also told me that if I get enough tegretal built up in my system... it will not ony help my bipolar and my Parkinson's... It will help my neuropathy and over all nerve damage... I think finding benefit for half of these will better my happy spirit and I don't mean the manic one lol...
I do feel very tired this afternoon and as soon as my son is done with his meeting I will go rest... Maybe watch some "Jessie" with the kids on netflix... lol... that's resting sorta lol...
Anyway... I did want to tell you that I think I was suppose to be late for the appointment.. because I ran late I ran into an acquaintance I met there with a simple hi how are you a month ago... But this time when she asked me how I was doing I decided to brave it and tell her the truth that things haven't been too good... and I asked about her and she burst into tears.. She is today where I was yesterday... So instead of leaving I sat and held her hand until her counselor who is mine.. came to get her... our counselor was very happy to see us sharing phone numbers and addresses... Giving her a hug that hurt to the max.. I know we will be friends.. If only because we both need one who can understand our illness...
I hope to see her soon and/or talk to her soon... The encounter put something back into my spirit and soul that I have missed for a long time... I helped and hugged without typing it...
take care... Thanks again... Love... Jan/Dakota