Good morning Nmonte,
It is sad to hear such issues in an 18y/o. I also found PT more painful then helpful for me, but maybe they are building up strength to the supporting structuresd there for you. NO PAIN NO GAIN. maybe premedicate before going, the tension you develop can effect the WHOLE of you!
Having this issue though is so challenging and for me, I believe so strongly you must keep moving. Being active and using the muscles will maintain your health over all. I use the book FM and Chronic Myofascial Pain a suvival manual by Dr Devin Starlanyl and Copeland to help me through.
Being young should give you some resiliency....being careful to have your meds right and treat the chemistry for depression. For years I said I AM NOT DEPRESSED....I am low when the pain is higher then i can handle in my day! Well no matter the cause, I am now treated to elevate the seratonin and norepinephrine levels and it helps so much.
Having support of family around you is priceless, do you have that? I am not as verbal anymore of the issues I deal with, they all "got it" now. And no one wants to hear that you hurt everyday.....That is why here is so GREAT!
We know the road, we know the issues and can hug you often. Don't fear for the future.....you have no control of it and everyday there may come a med or a course of action that will be a breakthrough and help us.
Eat well, drink water and move are the easiest of therapies...
Keep in a good place as often as you can.
Don't let the ANTS (automatic negative thoughts) get you. Switch them off....they only increase sensation to pain. They offer nothing good.
This psycologist is helping ? or just making you feel bad....if always making you feel bad about yourself....not a good fit* I would say.
They are for tools....tools to put your life together and see how to move forward in life. I am hopeful this is being done.....
I am here a long time now....over 15 years and I am 58y/o....I can't say I have worsened at all. I am actually better since savella was added to my meds. So positive things can happen. Learning you and journalling you and the things that trigger a pain event or start a downward course is big for staying away from them. Things that help and should be done regularly....is also part of the journal.
Hope the note here helped a bit. I am saddened to hear of someone so young dealing with this. You should be out living your life, not challenged with all these issues.........Hugs from me, Nancy B