Hi All... Good morning... I am having a good day just doing my Parkinson's Dance little more then usual... The dragon might have let up a bit and I seem to have some energy back... My pain let me out of bed without a scream this morning... First time I rose without a song for a long long time.. And I think I am hungry... Now that's something to sing praises about... lol...
I have chore one done of the day even tho I went back to sleep at my first alarm and woke up for the second... I managed to get my son up on the third alarm... and my grandson is already awake and was watching tv... He is my fourth and fifth alarm... get up and go to school lol...
In among those alarms are my alarms to take my meds... And today I have to get ready to go out for the afternoon... pack up my painkillers... Muscle relaxers... Anxiety pills.. don't forget them lol... Insulin and glucometer... having fits with that again... Sugar too high and crashing on it own...
Before I go I have to return a call to my gastroenterologist
and return their call I missed yesterday... It was my Dr checking on my colitis which luckily is gone... and telling me to reschedule an appointment a he wont be in that morning... So he found an earlier time... He is a great Dr... So personal... He is always calling to see how I am... Even when he doesn't see me for 3 months...
I am not as anxious this morning about the meeting... I am a person-person... I love people and love to help people... This is just just another opportunity to be myself and help others...
I enjoy coming here and hope I am helpful... But it is wonderful to do it in person and actually see the results in someones life... I use to run a divorce group I created in Minnesota yrs ago... It was great... At the same time I was in alanon... and loved helping there... Then I got cancer and had to let go of it all...
I do have a lot of people skills... And have a lot of way to help others... I know this... It is just easier now without having to go out and without the risk of rejection or judgement... I have faced that again with my close few friends and a couple have shied away... At least I haven't heard from them since I told them I am going deaf... Perhaps they have hit their dealing point... I have thought of calling them and giving them one last try... But part of me says just to let go...
Well... no matter how it works out today... I have here to come to... And I am so grateful... I will never forget your kind words to me when I first joined when I was ready to end my life to end this pain... For nothing was going to end it I was told... I think of that every time I get that low... or even close to that low...
I thank you again... and take care... Do something special for yourself today and every day... for you are special...
Love... Jan/Dakota