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Ok, I'll give a background to why I'm so scared right now! I have been with my boyfriend for three years. Earlier this year however we broke up for around five months. During that time I had an unprotected one night stand with a guy from Poland. I regretted it instantly (as I'm sure a lot of us do) and I'm filled with guilt every day for what I did! Three weeks later I had been working several late nights at my bar job then awoke one morning with what felt like flu, my throat wasn't sore but I has that painful, swollen feeling that you get behind the nose and felt very shivery, to my recollection I had no fever! This turned into a full cold/flu with a really bad productive cough which lasted a couple of weeks. About two weeks after the cold/flu subsided I then noticed I was gettin a lot of itching in my vagina and anal itching, also i has been having a burning sensation after i urinated......never when i was actually peeing, just after (i did actually start getting the burning and anal itching before the unprotected sex) so I thought I was gettin thrush (I have had this a few times before). I used canesten which siding help so I decide to go to my sexual health clinic as I was worried I may have gonorrhoea or chlamidya. This was now around 5 weeks after having unprotected sex.

The doctor said it looked like I had BV, and I was tested for gonorrhoea, chlamidya and trichonomiasis. I declined a HIV test as I was terrified of what the results could be.....I wish I'd just has it now as at least my mind would be to rest. I was given metronidazole and a tablet for thrush (can't remember the name).

As soon as i started taking the tablets i noticed i felt even more itchy amd my discharge has become heavier and more watery. I got my results a week later which were negative for the STI's.

However I am still continuing with the after burn from peeing and very slight vaginal itching to this day. I have never had BV before, just thrush and I am worried this could be an indication of the HIV virus, as well as the cold I had! I am absolutely terrified right now! I was on holiday last week and starte getting a stratchy throat the last couple of days which i still have, nothing as bad as some of the sore throats I've had in the past....but enough to scare the crap out of me! II know that I need to get tested as it is the only way of finding out but I feel I couldn't cope if I tested positive, not just for myself buy my boyfriend who I subsequently got back together with! I'm just in turmoil right now. I can't eat or sleep.....I have no one I am talk to about this which I why I am turning to this forum.