My name is Becky and I'm 38 years old. About11 years ago, I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Well, that in itself is misunderstood and usually not believed in. Ask my husband, he believes and thank God, he's still around and is good to me. I've had the ups and downs associated with it and depression is the worst side of my symptoms. About 2 years ago I went 6 months without a cycle and my doctor told me that it was ok and if I didn't want to have a period, that it was ok, otherwise he could put me on birth control (I don't have any biological children due to infertility issues). I never knew that not having a cycle was normal. I asked about menopause, because my Mom mentioned that she was 35 and it was around the time my brother was conceived and born. The doctor kinda laughed it off, but checked hormone levels and said they were fine. They started back to normal for about 7 months and it happened again Then he told me I had a small fibroid in the back of my utereos . Well, regular MD told me it was peri-menapause and that my gynecologist had just put me on birth control concerned her because I was over 35,overweight and exposed to my husband's smoking. She immediately told me to stop. I've got a point, sorry. I've been regular for close to a year, but they are heavier. I already had mood swings and the anxiety, but they eventually mixed with the perimen or menopause (OB said 12 months without cycle was menopause). I don't care what it's called. He's not going through it. My husband doesn't know what to do, because of the rollacoaster I'm on (he hasn't left me, so he's on there with me, lol). I couldn't tell which was causing the swings or depression, but it was driving me crazy. Then, hot flashes, night sweats, face flushing, feeling that I was burning from inside out. You guys know, so I don't have to go on. I've never had much support other than my husband and I'm blessed to have him, although at this point my constant chatter (don't know what that's about) has caused him to start tuning me out. Scared that I'm losing him and my mind...worry, that's another thing that's multiplied. So in closing of this BOOK (lol), I just wanted to say that I would much like the opinions and support of women who know and are familiar with what I'm going through, because I've always felt alone, this is making that feeling go through the roof. I welcome any comments-good or bad. Thank you.