I've been depressed for many many years, pretty much my whole life, except for a few years where I thought things might be okay if I worked hard enough.
Anyway, a couple years ago I started getting headaches from work, but I'm really good at ignoring pain. I figured it was just because the work was difficult.
A few months ago, there was some 24 hours or so where I was really vomiting constantly, almost like projectile vomiting, just really bad. And I figured it was either anger, or food poisoning, or an aneurism. I had had some organic mushrooms in a stir fry earlier and I thought maybe the company that sold them had gotten a bad batch.
Anyway, I went to the emergency room and they heard "mushrooms" and thought, this guy went out into the woods and ate something, so they tested me for drugs and sent me home with some aspirin and an anti-psychotic which I didn't take. I was sort of hoping they'd give me an MRI.
There was also something either around that time or before where I lost the ability to move my left arm for maybe ten minutes. It was sort of like it fell asleep but it was like the whole arm up a little past the shoulder.
Anyway, its been a few months and I don't really have any problems but sometimes I worry that I'm just going to drop dead. I mean it wouldn't be so bad, but there's things I need to do first and so I'm just wondering.