Ovarian Cancer Community

PLEASE HELP ME FIGURE OUT IF I AM A RARITY OR IF OUR ENTIRE COUNTRY HAS GONE INTO A MELTDOWN OF BASIC MORALS AND COMPASSION IN THIS THING WE CALL THE HEALTH CARE ORGANIZATION... I HAVE RECENTLY WENT THROUGH, YET ANOTHER OF A VERY LONG LINE OF "BOUTS OF ILLNESS" THAT I HAVE COME TO EXPECT AND WAIT FOR. ILLNESS HAS TAKEN OVER MY ENTIRE LIFE AND HAS TIME AFTER TIME CAUSED ME TO BECOME A VICTEM OF THE HEALTH CARE ORGANIZATION, AND A COUPLE OF YEARS AGO CAUSED ME TO BECOME UNABLE TO BE EMPLOYED AND PROVIDE FOR MYSELF ANYMORE, WHICH I ALSO WAS WONDERING WAS GOING TO HAPPEN, IN THE DOMINOE EFFECT OF CHRONIC, WORSENING ILLNESS. AND YET, TO THIS DAY, SINCE 1989.....LET ME SAY THAT AGAIN BUT AT LEAST NOW I CAN DO IT WITHOUT STARTING TO CRY AGAIN,,, SINCE 1989 I HAVE BEEN SICKER, AND SICKER, AND HAVE HAD A TOTAL 100% OF EVERYBODY, EVERY DOCTOR, EVERY CLINIC, EVERY HOSPITAL I HAVE BEGGED AND PLEADED TO HELP ME, A TOTAL 100% REFUSAL BY ALL OF THEM TO DO ANYTHING TO ASSIST ME IN TRYING TO GET THAT THING CALLED A DIAGNOSIS,,, A REAL DIAGNOSIS, NOT A MAYBE THIS IS MAKING ME SICK BUT AS ANOTHER SECONDARY ILLNESS, NOT AS THE CAUSE.. NOW, I HAVENT EVEN TRIED TO GET "CURED" OR EVEN TREATED...I JUST SO DESPERATELY NEED A DIAGNOSIS.. MAYBE I COULD ACTUALLY GET FINANCIAL ASSISTANCE SO I DONT END UP HOMELESS AND FREEZING UNDER A BRIDGE EVER AGAIN, TOO SICK TO THINK OF A WAY OUT. MAYBE I COULD HAVE PEOPLE STOP CALLING ME STUPID AND A HYPOCHONDRIAC, AND MAYBE I WOULD KNOW,,,,DONT DO THIS....DONT EAT THAT....DONT USE THIS MED......TYPE THING...AND THEN...OH WOW, NOW I HAVE BEEN COLLECTING, IN THE LAST COUPLE OF YEARS MY COLLECTION OF MED RECORDS. AT FIRST I WAS HOPING I WOULD MAKE A GOOD RESEARCH PROJECT... BUT....THEY KNOW!! THEY KNEW!!! ALL THIS TIME, ALL THESE PEOPLE TESTS, THEN SAY NOTHING IS WRONG,,, AND BLOW ME OFF AS USELESS TO THEM WHILE I STILL WOULD SAY,, BUT I AM STILL SICK!!WHY AM I SICK!!! AND STILL, ALL OF THEM HAVE WATCHED ME GET SICKER AND SICKER, AND KNOW WHAT CAN HAPPEN IF ILLNESSES ARE NOT "CAUGHT IN TIME" AND THEY KNOW!! WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO OUR ONCE SO COOL AND SO ADVANCED MEDICAL CARE PROFESSION THAT NOW THEY WONT SAY IF I AM SICK BECAUSE WHAT? THEY MIGHT HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF ME? I DONT UNDERSTAND ANY OF IT.. AND NOW, TODAY ITS HAPPENED AGAIN,, THE HEMOTOLOGIST WHO WAS TOLD TO ONLY CONCENTRATE ON BLOOD CLOTTING ISSUES BLOWED ME OFF WITH A GARBAGE SPEECH NEITHER OF US BELIEVED, AND SENT ME ON MY WAY AS TOTALLY TESTED FOR ALL BLOOD CLOTTING ISSUES,,,, THAT I ALREADY KNEW THE ANSWERS TO SINCE I HAD EXACTLY THE SAME TESTS DONE IN 2009, AND HEREDITARY ISSUES ARE STILL NEGATIVE...GO FIGURE!! AND I AM STILL SICK AND NOW HAVE ADDED BLEEDING PROFUSELY THROUGH THE SKIN (MUSCLE?) TO MY EVER GROWING LIST OF SECONDARY ILLNESS, AND I AM READING THINGS LIKE ABNORMAL TYPE III PAP SMEARS I WASNT TOLD ABOUT, OVER AND OVER AGAIN, THEN THEY JUST GO AWAY, AND THINGS LIKE APPX 22 FIBROIDS IN THE UTERINE, NEXT TO THE UNIDENTIFIED MASS THAT IS CROWDING OUT THE THREE OVARIAN CYSTS OF SOLID MASS WITH THE APPX 6 SMALL CYSTS GROWING ON THEM. AND THATS JUST THE FEMALE ISSUES....WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? LAY DOWN, APOLOGIZE FOR BOTHERING EVERYBODY, AND DIE AS QUICKLY AND QUIETLY AND POSSIBLE? PLEASE AT LEAST OFFER ADVISE ON MAYBE SOMEWHERE..SOMEONE...WHO DOESNT HAVE THE FIRST QUESTION BE, WHAT IS YOUR INSURANCE PROVIDER, AND THEN PASS ME OFF AS A USELESS CANDIDATE FOR THE EXPERIMENTAL SELECTIVE GENOCIDE PROGRAM THEY SEEM TO WANT TO ESTABLISH... YA I AM POOR, YA I AM SICK, YA HEALTH CARE IS EXPENSIVE, BUT NOT AS EXPENSIVE AS THE FRAUD THAT IS TAKING PLACE AT THE SAME PLACES THAT ARE BLOWING ME OFF AS A USELESS UNWANTED OXYGEN WASTER THAT IS EXPOSING THEM TO ILLNESSES I MIGHT HAVE.... IS IT REALLY HOPELESS IN THE 21 ST CENTURY?? HAVE WE REALLY EDUCATED AND TECHNOLIZED OURSELVES INTO OUR OWN UNAFFORDABLE, UNDESIRED EXISTANCES? I NAMED MY ILLNESSES, "CHRONIC UNTREATED NOT MY DEPARTMENT SYNDROME" IS ANYBODY OUT THERE WHO GIVES ANY CARE AT ALL FOR ANY OF THIS?