To Taoskier,
I have had the same pain management doc. for the last 15 years. When I first started they never did urine tests. Today it is totally different. I expect to be urine tested every time I go in which is every month. Times have changed. Some adults are not responsible with their pain meds, and their kids get a hold of them and they end up either overdosing or selling them. The DEA has cracked down on pain management doctors. You made a comment about them just covering their butts. When my doc. first started randomly doing urine tests, I like you , did not like it. But then I gave it some serious thought, would I want to lose my career, for one patients bad urine test.
My chronic pain was caused by an accident. It is defined as non-cancerous pain syndrome. I have nerve, bone and muscle pain in my face, neck and down my back. I too also have osteoarthritis, in my TMD joints, neck and back. I have started developing it in my hips, and other joints. For me the key is balance, I do yoga and tai-chi, I don't eat food that causes more inflamation in my joints, when the pain is really bad, I go on a soft diet. And I use my medication responsibly. I have had over 35 surgeries on my face and skull. Hopefully, I will never have to have another one. I used to be a flight attendant and a competitive runner. Now, I am on disability and I volunteer, and instead of running I walk. I also keep a gratitude journal, so I don't go to dark places.
I take the a smaller dose of ER Morphine, 30 mgs. twice a day. I also take MSIR 30 mgs. for break through pain. Trazadone, 100 mgs. at night, to help me sleep. Zanaflex 4mgs. 2 x's a day, mainly at night for muscle spasms. And lots of deep breathing !
My question for you did you try and talk to your doctor? I tested positive for alcohol a year ago with a urine test. I told my doctor before hand that I would test positive. I was not taking care of myself and thought what the hell, a few drinks can't hurt. I did not get fired from my pain management doctor. He did note it in my file. And I was closely monitored for the next 6 mos. and encouraged to seek out some professional help, which I did.
This is my story. I call it my new reality, no I can't run anymore, but I can walk, and I walk with a new awareness that I perhaps wouldn't have today, if I hadn't had to walk this journey. So you may never play the guitar like you did, but don't stop, play easier tunes. Show your children different chords, or better yet let them help you! It is humbling and joy full at the same time. When my son was learning to play, and he was having difficulty with a fret, I would hold the strings down for him. To me that is what is important.
Good luck on your journey...and once again this is only my story and opinion. Take what you want from it...
Peace,
pondergirl